0 Celsius: To thaw a frozen heart novel Chapter 33

I am faded

2 months later

Alessandro's study room

He sat at his table with study lamp being his only illumination.

Papers lie scattered around him and the clock stuck 2 at night.

He removed his specs from his nose, rubbed his eyes and placed his specs on the table.

Placing both his hands behind his head he leaned back on the chair and closed his eyes.

He loved the silence...he loved the darkness

They gave serenity to his chaotic mind.

But this silence was also short lived when he heard something falling down in the room next to him.

Rushing out of his room to the next one his heart accelerated just like it did most often these days.

As soon as he opened the door pitch darkness welcomed him.

Afraid he called out her name..

"Saph....?...are you fine ....where are you...."

No reply....he felt like he could hear her heavy breathing but she didn't reply.

He switched on the lights to see her small body lying on the floor...her eyes were glued on the broken side lamp and her hands clutched the pillow like her life was dependent on it.

He sighed with relief seeing her to be fine.

He took small silent steps towards her.

Reaching her he crouched down at her level but she still refuse to look at him...

"Saph? I asked you something...? Are you fine...."

"I...."

"I.....I...."

He nodded encouraging her to go on as she looked at him trying to form the correct words.

"Br.....o.....ke.......expensive....."

Suddenly her demeanour changed

She looked at him with horror and fear.

"I ....am . sorry......sorry.......S....orry.......!!!!!

Stupid....!.... Stupid!!! STUPID!! STUPID!!!!"

She started hitting her tiny palms on her head trying to punish herself...

He held her hands stopping her but she refused to stop.

She kept thrashing in his arms without fail.

"Let.....me go......let....me go!!!"

This continued till tears were streaming down her eyes and pity overflowing his heart.

But he refused to leave her hands...

Refused to let her harm herself..

"Saph it's fine...it was not expensive...it was cheap...."

She stilled listening to his words..

Her next words made him loose his sanity

"C....h....eap?"

She asked again and he nodded with a smile trying to show her he was not angry.

"....just....like..me?"

It felt like hundred knives were stabbed into his heart.

He stilled staring at her face unable to bear the pain in her words.

"...No.....No baby...no.. my Saph can never be cheap...you my dearest are the most precious one in the world...never call yourself that...okay?"

He asked placing his thumb on her tears and wiping them off her porcelain skin.

"...b...ut....I...am....a slut....they....the voices...say......that I am a slut.... slut's are cheap.....ar.... aren't they?"

Her eyes stared into his cold ones to see if she was right..

He did n't say anything for a few minutes.

Instead he picked up her body in his arms and placed her down on the bed covering her with the quilt.

She thought his silence meant acceptance but then he spoke.

"I am the only voice you should believe Saph ..only I am real and I think that my Saph only belongs to me...you are mine Saph....only mine...and no one's slut ....you belong to me...just like I belong to you.....body ...heart...soul ... everything....."

"..but...the..--"