0 Celsius: To thaw a frozen heart novel Chapter 35

Insane love

Sapphire pov

Insane

That's what I hear people calling me behind my back

But when was I not insane.

Then when I came to know I was thrown away by my parent's into a bin.

Then when I didn't speak a word for a week when children at the orphanage bullied me.

Then when I slept for days under a tree or anything that covered my head and the passer-by’s just stared.

Or then when Andro left me after showing me what you mean by the word love.

Yes I was insane

And I am happy about it.

You know why?

Because that's what made me survive.

That's what made me realise that after everything I suffered I was still human.

A human with lost mind

But she is alive.

Breathing each second...

Seeing the only person I cared for caring for me in return.

Giving me everything he couldn't.

Trying his best in every way he could.

But he was too late.

I was gone now.

My sanity was lost and so were my emotions.

I was chaos

Both inside and out.

One minute I feel serene

The other I feel like breaking everything in the room.

One minute I adore his features with love and the other minute I feel like killing the girls who even dare to touch him.

One minute I feel I am normal

And the other those voices comeback

Haunting me every minute of day and night.

One minute I am normal

Another minute I am a psycho who doesn't even know what she is doing.

Right now I am staring at Andro's perfectly cut face.

He is asleep on the sofa facing me.

He looks tired

Tired of looking after me every second.

But he doesn't give up.

"He doesn't deserve you..!"

The voice said and I sighed..

I was expecting it..it doesn't leave me alone for a minute I swear.

"I know "

I said defeated and closed my eyes trying to get some sleep.

"Why don't you let him go? Why are you being selfish and making him suffer...just kill yourself and set him free you slut!!"

My anxiety attack was coming listening to the voice..

Gone was the voice

Gone was the fear

Instead a heat pooled between my legs and it burned down all my insecurities.

I stared at him unable to respond.

But I guess he expected this when he guided me all along

He kissed me

And I didn't respond.

Not because I didn't wanted to..

No but because a question entered my mind that froze my senses.

"Did I deserve him? Did he deserve a psycho orphan insane bipolar girl as his partner for life?

Did he deserved to suffer all his life just because he loved a psycho girl....

No he is wrong...

His choices are wrong....

I need to stop this...

I don't need him to die with me.

I want him to be happy.

He can't be happy if he keeps wasting his time on a gone case like me...

I stopped him by placing my hands on his chest and pushing him back

But he out rightly refused.

Instead his strong hands gripped my tiny fists and pushed them back leaving me completely at his mercy.

He refused to break the kiss as I refused to accept it.

"S...t...o..p..."