0 Celsius: To thaw a frozen heart novel Chapter 40

Stay with me

I was too blinded by my own problems to see how much he was suffering.

I was too blind to see him cry at night holding on to his mother's pictures.

I was too blind not to see how much losses his dream business was making because of his lack of presence in his office.

I was too blind not to see him give away whatever he ever considered dear in his life.

For what if you ask

For Me

For making me his Saph again.

And maybe for repentance.

But for how long.

How long will he take care of me.

How long will he wait for me to be normal.

Some say schizophreniea is life long.

What if my problems continue for my entire life.

Will he spend his entire life looking after me?

Hoping one day I will be fine?

When that one day may never come.

No if this happens he will destroy himself

Destroy his hardworking

Destroy his wealth

Destroy his business

Everything will be taken away from him.

I can't take away his dreams.

I still remember that twinkle in his eyes when he used to tell me about his new project.

That thrill that made him love his profession.

I can't take away his mother from him.

I have no right .

She is right at her part.

Right to see me unfit for her son.

Right to not see her only son destroy his life because of a girl.

I know he loves me a lot.

But his love holds the power to destroy himself without even knowing it.

I will kill him unintendedly without even him knowing.

Can I do this to my Andro

To the only person I love.

These thoughts have made my nights sleepless and days restless.

I observe him everyday.

How his each day starts with me and ends on me.

How selfless he is when it comes to me.

He forgets his meals but never forgets my medicines.

He wakes every night to engulf me in his arms whenever I have a bad dream.

He makes me sleep in his arms while he himself spends sleepless nights.

Right now he is sleeping on the sofa surrounded by papers.

Papers not about his business but about my disease.

Papers that show how to treat schizomaniacs with love.

He reads research papers on it and tries to contact the best doctors in the world.

I run my fingers through his hair as he sleeps peacefully.

His eyes have dark circles around them and the well defined body people adored seems to loose it's muscles.

I place a lingering kiss on his forehead as a tear escaped my eyes and landed on his shirt.

"I am sorry Andro...I love you"

With this I slowly lifted myself up and held the handle of the suitcase ready to leave.

My heart was dying leaving him but it is better this way.

I turned around one last time to save the memory of his beautiful face in my mind forever.

I will miss seeing these beautiful eagle eyes.

But if they could see me I would never leave.

In the darkness of the night I wanted to fade away from his life and memory.

If I will fade all his pains and suffering will also leave him.

With a piece of paper with dried tears I was leaving behind my everything.

Leaving to make myself deserving for him.

I brought myself here...I did this to me and only I can correct it.

I will make myself deserving for you Andro

I will be your pride not Achilles heel.

As I made my way away from the big mansion I asked the driver to take me to her with whom I have a lot of bad blood from her side.

Miss Clarissa Romano

Andro's mother.

After I ringed the bell multiple times I could hear curses coming from inside.

Her curses got turned to silence when she saw my face.

Not expecting me at her doorstep at this hour made her confused and angry at the same time.

"What are you doing here...?"

"Can we talk ma'am...I mean miss Romano.."

She looked hesitant but still cleared the entrance for my entry.

"If you are here to play one of the tricks you play with my son... remember bit*** I will never fall for them...I am amazed you have the audacity to come here after destroying my only family."

"See miss Clarissa I know you hate me..and even though I never experienced a mother's love but still I know it is right for a mother to hate me when I ruined her son's life.

I am not good for him ...never was actually but love blinded me.

Blinded me of my selfishness.

I want you to talk to him...he longs for you every night...please talk to him..."

Her eyes softened listening to her son's condition.

"He misses you so much....he needs you ma'am ...please not for me but for him..."

"I will not show him my face until he leaves you.."

She said with determination and anger shining in her grey eyes.

"Well then you should visit him tomorrow only because I am leaving..."

She laughed slightly considering my statement to be a joke.