In the end, she buys steamer tickets straight to Country F, but it will take longer. She makes this choice considering John's health, and to avoid being tracked by Louis.
John has been quiet recently. He just lets her lead the way, not sad or happy. Lily feels sad that his soul is not with her.
After settling in on the ship, Lily gets a glass of warm water and brings it to him with the medicine.
Watching him silently taking the medicine, Lily can't help but say, "John, don't be like this. I feel bad. You can say anything you want. Don't give me the silent treatment."
She hates when he behaves like a dying person.
John looks out of the window and sees the sparkling blue sea.
After a while, he whispers, "I don't want to go to that lab anymore. Take me around. I know my body. It's no use going there."
He has just taken the medicine but starts coughing violently again.
The palm of his hand is covered with blood.
Lily quickly wipes his hand with a napkin and says, her eyes sore, "It will help. Perhaps when we get there, they will have their findings."
"You're only in your twenties. How can you die?" Lily grips his hand and begs, "Do this for me. Don't overthink it. I hope you can be happy."
John touches her cheek with his hand.
Her cheek feels so tender.
She looks exactly like when they first met. But she is getting more confident and can handle things on her own without his protection.
Louis is right. It was wrong for John to assume that Lily was weak. She can't be locked up in a cage.
"I was wrong. I was too scared," John mutters in a low voice, "I was afraid my brother would attack you, but I know now you are braver than I thought. In fact, you are your own woman."
Instead of guiding her properly, he pushed her away.
That is why they keep missing each other.
Lily shakes her head. "No, you've been protecting me. Because of that, I'm safe and sound. It's the same for me now. I really need you."
"I won't live long."
Lily quickly presses her finger on his lips, her eyes filled with sadness and determination. "You will live for a hundred years. When you get better, can you take me skiing? Didn't you say you wanted to teach me how to ski?"
John laughs.
He knows Lily broke up with Louis to keep him company. But it isn't because she loves him, but because he is about to die. She is just feeling sorry for him.
And she just said that to comfort him.
"Alright, I'll teach you when I'm well." John holds her hand tightly and says, "I want to take you around the world to see the most beautiful scenery."
Lily laughs through her tears and nods vigorously, saying, "That's a promise. I'll wait."
"Perfect."
John becomes cheerful and chatty. Lily finally relaxes.
At noon, Lily takes John to the restaurant on the ship for dinner.
There is Chinese food on board, but it isn't made by a Chinese chef. The food is medium-cooked and smelly.
Lily stops eating it after a few bites and feels sick in her stomach. She wants to make it to the bathroom but throws up into the trash can beside her seat instead.
John comes over to pat her on the back, saying nervously, "Are you alright?"
Lily shakes her head and replies, "I'm fine. I'm just not used to the food here."
John gets her a glass of water. When she looks better, he calls for a waiter and whispers a few words into his ear.
Lily happens to see him do it and asks, "What did you tell him?"
"I asked him to get us another lunch."
"There's no need. I can make do with it."
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