Leila let down her defense in this tone, but her words were still so desolate, “I have no idea if we can start over again! Maybe it’s ok, but I think it’s not this moment. So don’t force me to do it.”
Vincent walked to her side, squatted down, and looked into her eyes. "I am not forcing you to do it, Leila! I just want to tell you my feelings, the truest feelings in my heart!"
She was a little surprised. She tried to draw her hand, but it was in vain.
“Leila, I missed you every day during the past two months you weren’t around me. Sometimes, the empty kitchen reminded me of you busy in an apron. Every time I thought of this in my mind, all the food in my mouth lost its taste no matter where and when. I found that I was sadder in the day without you. I do notice that I had hurt you so deeply and caused irreparable consequences. And I confess every day.”
He seemed to be thinking and suffering great pains. After a long time, he said, “Sometimes I woke up in the middle of the night, your shadow was shaking in front of me. I couldn’t tell dream from reality! I missed you so much...”
Leila was startled, but she still said faintly, "If two people lived together for a long time, they would make it a habit. But it can be changed, and you would get used to it slowly!"
He was silent for a long time. Leila saw that his mouth had been opened several times, but he failed to speak it out.
“But we have been together just for a few months, there were few habits between us. I thought it was not just the habit, it was love!” He looked at her eyes with deep affection.
“Let’s go for a meal first.” She was afraid to hear more affectionate confession.
“Leila, I was not hungry.” He whispered.
“You have to eat even if you are not hungry.” Again, Leila said it flatly and kept looking at him.
Vincent shook his head and closed his eyes. The scenes of being with Leila constantly appeared in his mind and he was so reluctant to it. "I know that if I say it right now, when the wound in your heart has not healed, it will force you a bit. But I just want to face it with you, okay?"
"If you don’t want me to leave now, stopped saying, okay? Just shut up, let's have a meal first!" she said quietly. Her mind was in a mess, she just didn't know how to move on.
Love was unpredictable.
She believed that Vincent loved her but love just was not enough!
"Okay! I would shut up and eat!" Vincent opened his eyes and stared at Leila's fair face, he nodded and said nothing. He just felt so happy that she was willing to meet him and had a meal with him. That would be fine.
Her broken heart needed time to heal slowly, and he was willing to spend a lifetime warming her badly hurt heart and hoped that he could do well enough.
"You haven't eaten for a day. It’s better to drink some soup to moisturize your stomach!" But he suddenly looked up at her when she brought a bowl of soup to him.
His eyes seemed moist, but she couldn’t tell whether it was tears or the vapor from the soup.
She watched him sipping the soup as if it was so precious to him.
Leila felt a sudden spike of pain in her heart. To calm down, she pinched her left hand hard under the cover of the table.
Vincent was unable to control his emotion anymore. “How are you doing in City R?” He asked in a hoarse voice.
“It’s ok.” Leila tried her best to smile.
“Do you know…” He couldn’t utter the rest of the words. He wanted to say, “Did you know how much I miss you?”
Leila had pinched herself so hard and her left hand had become reddish. She tried to change the subject, “How is Pippa doing recently?”
“I don’t know!” Vincent had never been to visit her. He is not a heartless person, but he just didn’t want to get in trouble, because Pippa was so paranoid that she always made trouble.
Leila didn’t say anything.
She kept her head down and didn’t look at him.
“Eat something.” He got some food for her when he saw that she was not eating.
“OK.” She ate silently but very little.
He ate quickly but very little too.
He just sat there and watched her after the meal. Leila looked into his eyes and asked, “Are you done?”
“Yep!” He nodded.
She looked at the bloodshot in his eyes and said, "Then go to sleep, I am leaving now!"
"Where are you going?" He became nervous suddenly and didn't want her to leave.
"I'm going to pick up Renee!"
"It's still early! What time is her flight arriving? Doesn’t Miyamoto stay with her? Why do you need to pick her up?" He just didn't want her to leave.
"No, she came back alone!" she whispered.
"What happened to them?" Vincent frowned and asked inexplicably.
“No…nothing!” Leila couldn't tell Vincent that Renee Byrne had sex with Miyamoto, right? This is the private of Renee Byrne, she needed to keep it secret.
"Leila, I will go with you later!" Vincent said.
"No! I can do it alone!" Leila insisted. Then she walked out with her bag.
Feeling her persistence, he was so sad and lonely. "Let me take you to the airport please!"
"No, I'm going home now! I'll go to the airport later!"
"Then let me take you home!"
“No!” She said.
“Then you stay here and I’ll take you to the airport before she arrives!” His big hand suddenly gripped Leila's small hand and led her to the sofa.
Suddenly tears welled up in her eyes. She kept her head down, and the tears fell onto his leg, getting her jean wet.
She cried without a sound, he was startled and asked: " Leila, are you crying?"
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the writing is quite childish, but maybe it's just the translations...