Bad Love: An Alpha's Regret (Leah and Aaron) novel Chapter 326

EMILY

I don’t bother asking Axel what his punishment will be if I disobey him and leave the house.

Instead, I turn on my heel and walk out on him, going to find wherever Jessica ran off to.

I half expect Axel to follow me, but he doesn’t, and I don’t know if I’m relieved or annoyed.

No, I tell myself firmly. I’m definitely relieved.

But even I’m not buying my own lie.

When Axel had pulled me up against him just now in the office, for a second, I’d thought he was going to kiss me, maybe do even more than that.

My body had all but melted like ice cream on hot pavement.

I wanted him.

Even worse now that I knew what it was like to come apart in his arms.

But I hated myself for that.

Did I have no self-respect?

The man has made no secret about his negative feelings toward me.

Yet my body and my instincts—most especially my wolf—want me to surrender to him every time he turns that heavy gaze my way.

I find Jessica, but she’s with other pack members and I don’t get a chance to talk to her.

I’m not sure what I would say to her anyway, how I might present the idea of getting rid of Axel in a way where she might help me instead of running straight to Axel or Aaron to tell them what I’m planning.

Dinner comes and goes, and Axel is lurking here and there, always watching me closely as if he’s expecting me to just get up and run off at any second now.

I ignore him, and it seems as long as I’m with Jessica, he mostly leaves me alone.

Jessica asks me if I want to watch a movie, and I almost instinctively look to Axel for permission which just pisses me off even more.

Since when did I start thinking I needed his approval to do anything?

So I resist the urge to look over at him and tell Jessica I’d love to watch a movie.

We pop some popcorn and grab some soda pop like when we were teenagers and head into the mansion’s theater room.

Axel leaves us be, but I’m sure he’s probably lurking in the hallway.