Be My Mate novel Chapter 13

Sabrina's POV

With everyone enjoying the feast and celebration of my brother's coronation, bodies gone and the castle running normally again as if there was never a massacre, the werewolves carried on. Enjoying the bottomless drinks and rare meat on display.

Josey overindulged on the champagne, who knows what her tolerance levels are now being a hybrid and all. My brother stayed alert, as always. With the attempt on his life, I doubt he'll sleep with both eyes closed.

"Why are you standing up here, looking down at us? Still think someone will try to kill Cj?" Maximus asks. His scent wafting through my nose, opening up all the memories I buried deep in my brain.

"I just need to breath. Too many emotions in one sitting. It us overwhelming.." I say turning to face my first chosen mate.

He stayed shirtless but was kind enough to wear a new pair of dress pants, thank the goddess. Standing here with a naked ex mate, never mind our animalistic ways, would be awkward. How would I explain it?

I had changed in to a different dress. Still gold but silky and flowy, less dramatic but definitely elegant. The problem is, had he been naked this would've been awkward because I'm commando. Right? Oh well.

"I had a chance to talk to your mate. He's not that bad actually.." Max tells me, which has me raising my eyebrows at him.

"Not that bad? In what way?" I ask, completely curious to find out what he meant when he said that. Although the other half of my brain was telling me that he was trying to make conversation.

"I mean he's an okay guy. I can't fault him, goddess knows I tried. We all want to fault him, I'm sure Xander wants to." Max says to me and I chuckle.

"I wanted to fault him too when we met but he surprised me. He's still a virgin waiting on his mate and when I told him we could never work because I see myself more of an earthling, he came down to earth to learn our ways. His patience, I mean this guy is just... I can't fault him. He's also easy on the eyes." I say before taking a sip of my first and only glass of warm champagne.

I've been holding on to this glass for probably an hour, lost in my thoughts.

"Yeah, we all didn't miss the tongue war you both had in the middle of all the fighting." Max says disapprovingly.

"Yeah, Josey gave me a mouthful but you don't get to disapprove. You don't get to anything." I say, turning my entire body to face him.

"I know, I know.." Max says with his arms raised in surrender.

"I'm an ex Kimberley. I'll forever be jealous." He says, his body leaning on the railing as he watches my sister try to dance.

"I understand." I say as I turn to look down at the crowd too. We stay silent while standing next to each other while the memories we shared together played over and over in my head. Even if he stayed the perfect chosen mate, I'd still end up with Aiden.

Even if Percy chose me and not that whore of a nanny, I'd have to break his heart. My world was different and it had a mate, a true mate that was chosen for me before Percy was chosen for me. It's all so confusing how Ethia was able to meddle this much in my life.

And then Xander....

My poor Xander.

The dreams we had together, the dream to have a girl and name her Alexandria. A name I chose because it was fitting, a female warrior who will be unstoppable.

"You look deep in thought.." Xander says which confuses me. Last I checked, I was standing here with Maximus.

"Yeah.." I say. Not sure what to say to him.

"I saw Max walk away and I figured this was my only chance to get you alone, to talk." Xander says to me.

"I was thinking about you actually." I say.

"Oh? Surprised I don't have a mark on my neck?" He asks and I nod my head yes. Well I wasn't thinking it but I noticed the lack of a mark on his neck hours ago.

"Sabrina, I won't lie to you, the mate pull is doing it's job. I want to be around her 24/7, touch her and make her mine but I can't shake off this gnawing at the back of my head. You, your scent that's still lingering back at the pack house. Just knowing you played match maker with me makes this whole mate thing feel like a sham." Xander says.

"I know. It's weird for me too." I say but Xander chuckles.

"No. Weird is seeing Josey sit and laugh with her ex mates. Still having to smell your scent back at home, seeing you now and having to watch you kiss whatshisface, that's painful. I still want you, goddess knows I still want you but I want her too and don't tell me I'm conflicted, no." Xander confesses.

"I'm so sorry you had to watch that. I got so caught up in the moment, I lost my senses for a minute there." I say, quickly looking away from him.

"You had enough sense to wrap a ball of fire around you both for protection." Xander teases and I smile.