Beauty and The Beta (Bailey) novel Chapter 123

I dashed away as I heard the door closing loudly. I know I have hurt his feelings. Just as he seemed to be opening up to me too. But I couldn’t stay, not after he had heard all of that. What would he think of me now? He was such a strong man, I did not want him to think I was weak. Hearing Miles talk to me in that way would change the way he thought of me without a doubt, and I was terrified it could put my position here at risk.

I rushed to my room and closed my bedroom door behind me. My heart felt like it was pounding within my chest. I could feel Akira’s presence, and she felt on edge. Whimpering, and broken. Much the same as me. She had been allowing herself to get closer to that man, I was sure of it. She had felt for him when he was struggling and that was unusual for her.

Why did Miles feel the need to call me? He was meant to be secure and in treatment was he not? So why was he able to reach out to me? None of it made sense. Though I suppose the reason why was easy to answer. He wanted to torture me. That was always his reason for his nastiness toward me. Always his reasoning for his vileness. I had naively hoped that the treatment would make some changes in him, turn him back to the boy he used to be. But, I think Jordan is right. He craves the power being the Alpha brings, and the fear it instills in people. And that makes him dangerous.

What I don’t understand is why he had to make me suffer. I was willing to walk away. Allow him the life of power and freedom he desired. But he seemed to want me there. Not as his mate as fate had planned, but more as a toy to torture…

I stripped my clothes off, and walked into the shower, needing to scrub myself clean. Hating everything about me right now. This was not the life I wanted for myself. But it appeared to be the life I had been given. The life I was born into. I quickly washed my body and my hair, before rinsing myself off, trying hard not to allow my mind to wander. I did not need to let myself think of home and the mess that would await me if I was forced to return. I quickly turned the shower off, stepping out and grabbing a towel as I did.

I put on my pajamas and walked back to my bed, to hear my phone ringing once more. My heart began to pound, fearful of the thought it could be Miles again, so I tentatively walked to my phone only to see it was Luna Eden.