Becoming strangers again (Lily and Ryan) novel Chapter 143

LILY

I awoke to the sight of several missed calls from Ryan on my phone. I must have been far more exhausted than I realized for me to sleep so soundly and not hear my phone ringing. Stifling a yawn, I glanced over at the clock on my nightstand. My eyes widened in disbelief when I saw the time. “Damn!” I muttered under my breath.

It was already seven in the morning. How on earth did I manage to sleep through my alarm?

Jumping out of bed, I rushed down the hall toward my kids' room. I needed to make sure they were up and getting ready. Thankfully, their nanny had already woken them, helped them shower, and they were now sitting at the table, eating breakfast.

I exhaled a sigh of relief and ran a hand over my forehead, noticing it felt unusually warm to the touch. Was I coming down with a fever?

“Good morning, ma’am,” Jane greeted, her voice bringing me back to the present.

I blinked slowly, trying to focus. “Good morning, Jane,” I replied, giving her a tired smile. I walked over to my boys, planting a gentle kiss on each of their heads and wishing them a good morning before retreating back to my room to get ready for work.

While I brushed my teeth, I tried Ryan's number again, but it wouldn’t connect. After three attempts, I gave up, letting out a frustrated sigh.

I dropped the phone onto the sink with a soft thud and stepped into the shower, hoping the warm water might wash away the lingering fatigue.

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By the time I finally made it to the office, I was already running late. Even my secretary looked surprised to see me coming in at this hour. She followed me into my office, her tablet in hand, ready to go over my schedule for the day and the list of surgeries I had lined up.

"Are you feeling alright, ma'am?" she asked, her brows knitted together with concern. "You look a bit pale."

"I'm fine," I replied, though I wasn’t entirely sure if I believed it myself. I just needed to wait for the medication I’d picked up from the pharmacy to start working. "Do I have to observe another neurosurgery today?"

She shook her head gently. “You don’t have to, but it was a special request from the patient’s family,” she explained, her fingers tapping quickly on her tablet as she pulled up the details. “The patient is a little girl, only five years old, and her parents specifically asked for you to monitor the surgery. They know you’re a mother and believe that would make you extra vigilant—they trust you to make sure nothing goes wrong.”

“And what happens if I say no?” I asked. In all honesty, I wasn’t feeling up to sitting through another long surgery today.

Maybe I should have just stayed home.

“There’s no formal penalty for declining,” she replied, choosing her words carefully, “but it might not reflect well on the hospital’s image if word gets out that you refused such a request.”

I rubbed my hands over my face, feeling the throbbing ache in my head. “Alright,” I sighed, finally nodding in reluctant agreement. “I’ll be with them shortly.”

Once she left the room, I quickly reached for the bottle of painkillers in my desk drawer and popped a couple more into my mouth, hoping they’d work fast to dull the relentless pounding in my skull. After taking a moment to steady myself, I grabbed my white coat from the back of my chair and slipped it on, preparing myself for the task ahead.

The surgery dragged on for five long, exhausting hours. I sat there, watching every move Dr. Amell made, my eyes straining to stay focused. Finally, when he signaled that the procedure was complete, relief washed over me. I immediately got up from my seat, eager to head back to my office.

However, as I stood up, a wave of dizziness hit me, causing me to sway unsteadily on my feet. One of the doctors who had been observing the surgery with me quickly reached out, catching me by the arm to steady me. “Are you okay?”

I nodded and took a small step back, gently pulling away from his grasp. “I just stood up too fast,” I explained, forcing a weak smile. Though he seemed skeptical, he didn’t press the issue further, his eyes lingering on me for a moment longer before he turned back to his work.

I glanced over at the glass partition separating the observatory from the operating room and noticed Dr. Amell watching me closely, a look of concern etched on his face. I chose to ignore his gaze and walked out of the observatory room, my steps a bit slower and more cautious than before.

I headed straight for my office, and as soon as I stepped inside, the first thing I did was grab a blanket from the small closet. Exhausted beyond measure, I collapsed onto the sofa and closed my eyes, hoping for a few moments of rest.

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