Beneath Her Darkness: The Alpha's Little Demon by Cassandra M novel Chapter 189

Chapter 37 - What's There To Love About Me?

LUCIUS.

"No! No! I’m sorry! Patrea! I said I’m sorry."

I watched as black veins crawled on the skin of her neck, starting from where the bite was, and watched in terror as she choked in front of me.I didn’t know what to do.

She couldn’t breathe.

The pain in my chest was killing me, and I just wanted to succumb to it, but I couldn’t just let Patrea go.Her eyes fluttered before they shut, and the veins disappeared from her skin, and I knew I was losing her.

My hand reached for her neck as I summoned my power to remove my mark, but I couldn’t.

Marks and wounds from the underworld were permanent.

Why the fuck did I forget a demon mark was deadly? My whole body shook as the agony of my action washed over me.I was losing the only female I ever cared about, and it was entirely my fault.I leaned my head closer to her naked chest.

Her heart was still beating.I got up from the bed before I scooped up her body and transported us back to the cave where we came from.

All the while, tears were pouring from my eyes.I didn’t know I was capable of crying, but I didn’t know I was capable of loving too.

If Patrea died, I didn’t want to be here anymore.

"Lucija!"

I bellowed the moment we appeared on the cave floor, and I saw the shock that registered on Lucija and Stone's faces the moment their eyes fell on the mark on her neck.

"Oh, Goddess! What have you done?"

Lucija screamed as she ran toward us before Nyneve’s wicked laughter filled the whole cave, and it made the anger in my body surge up.

My hand flew as I fired fireballs her way, burning her legs at the same time that Stone shot ice spikes at her, piercing her throat.She choked on her blood, but the rage and guilt in me unleashed the demon inside of me.

I transferred Patrea's limp body onto Lucija’s arms before I raised my body in the air and flew to where Nyneve was.She screamed as fear flitted in her eyes when she saw my demon claws emerge.

In seconds, I had ripped her head apart, and it rolled off the ground before I clawed her heart out.

I would have wanted a different kind of death for her, but it didn't matter anymore.

Her blood splattered on my face and all over my body, with her heart pulsating in my hand.

I crushed it before letting the blood and pieces of it fall to the ground, instead of eating it as I would have done on other days.

My mind was still in a daze, trying to come to terms with the fact that Patrea was dying.

I lowered my body to the ground and slowly made my way to Lucija, who was still carrying her body as tears kept streaming down her face.

She was angry.

With me.

And I couldn’t blame her.

"I killed her." I finally said it.

"Her heart is still beating,"

Lucija stated, her eyes refusing to meet mine.

"If she loves you, she will survive this," Stone added.

"And if she doesn’t?"

My shoulders shook as my whole body wracked in my silent cry before I began trashing around the cave.

Everything I could hold in my hands was destroyed or burned in seconds.

"Enough, Lucius! We need to take her to your chamber!"

Lucija’s angry voice snapped me back to the present.I nodded my head and transported us into my room.

My bed was still in disarray following our tryst, and her blood was still on the sheets.

Lucy did something to fix it before she lowered Patrea’s body onto the bed.

"I want to talk to Hades," I said in a low voice.

I felt like I had lost all the energy in my body, and I was just floating, not knowing what to do.

"You can't leave her! What if something happened?" Lucija said.

"Something is already happening!"

I snapped at her.

"I can’t just stay here and watch her die!"

"Calm down!"

Stone growled at me.

"Can you see yourself calming down if it’s Lucija laying down there?" I snapped at Stone this time.

"I’m not the fucking enemy here! You just need to calm down so we can think of the right thing to do!"

"I said I wanted to meet Hades!"

"I’ll go with you."

Stone volunteered, and 1 nodded my head.I knew Hades favored him, and he could help me plead to him.

"You can’t leave me alone here! Give me a minute to take Althea here! Maybe she can do something!" Lucija suggested.

I nodded my head.I didn’t want to argue anymore.

"Take me to Blade’s territory.I have the image in my head.Open your mind so I can tell you when we are ready to come back."

I was just like a puppet, and I sent Lucija to Blade’s territory before I walked to the bed and sat beside Patrea.My fingers trailed along the mark I gave her.

The wound was still fresh, and from time to time, a pool of blood would form before it would drip down her neck.I leaned my face forward and rested my forehead on hers as my mouth brushed against her lips.

"I love you, Patrea.If I did kill you, I hope you will forgive me.I hope you heard me when I said I love you because I really do.And I hope you will come back to me."

I was a sobbing mess.

My tears were falling from my eyes into her face.

"I know I told you that hope never resides in demons.But you taught me about it when you said you hoped one day you would get over your trauma.And we did it.I want to have that hope now.Because that is all I can hold on to at the moment.I don’t want to lose you...Come back to me, please."

I wanted to tell her many things, but Lucija asked to be transported back, taking Althea and Blade with her.They offered their souls to her.