Chasing The Rejected Luna's Heart (Clara and Liam) novel Chapter 137

~CLARA~

“If you all cared about me so much then why was I abandoned?” I questioned after he pulled away and he sighed.

“The story is very complicated and…”

“Father didn't want me because I was a wolf, right?” I questioned and his eyes widened.

“Like I said, it's complicated and…”

“But you didn't deny it, which means it's true. He didn't want me” I interrupted, not able to hide the sadness in my voice.

He stared at me for a while but didn't say anything which made me even sadder.

“So I was truly abandoned then? And how come I can't remember anything? I should be able to remember something. We wolves have good memories” I told him and couldn't understand why I was so affected by this.

If anyone had tried to tell me about my parents or anything related to them in the past, I would have dismissed them before they even got the chance.

I remembered how I used to long for a mother's love or father's warmth when I was younger but as I grew older, I slowly began to hate anything that had to do with my parents because I couldn't understand why they would abandon me.

“The day I met you was one of those days where I would sneakily check up on your father and there you were, crying softly in your father's arms. I could still remember the pure adoration he had on his face as he stared down at you and I knew you meant the world to him and when I laid my eyes on you, I felt completely different. You noticed my presence even before your father and turned to me with a curious gaze. My heart immediately swelled up with love as I stared into your eyes and I knew then that I could never hate you. You were my niece for crying out loud. Ever since that day, I kept visiting your father to spend more time with you and each time, I fell more and more in love with you and my life which once only had one purpose which was to kill your kind slowly began to have another purpose which was to protect you. At that point, I saw you as my daughter and was ready to go against everyone to keep you safe. Slowly but surely, I began to warm up to your mother as well and saw that she wasn't so different from us and I could really see that she loved your father so I wasn't so against their union as I was before” He explained and we were both silent for a while.

“If you all loved me so much, how did I end up in that pack? How did I end up abandoned?” I questioned and his eyes darkened as a frown appeared on his lips.

“Slowly, your father developed dementia and I or anyone else didn't notice before it was too late. I remembered how I would come to check up on him and catch him beating up your mother to the stage of almost killing her. I would have to pull him away from her and he would accuse me of protecting a wolf but as soon as he came back to his senses or rather, remembered who your mother was, he would cry wholeheartedly and sometimes, even beat himself up because of it. Anytime I caught him crying, something broke inside of me but I didn't know how to help because I didn't understand what was going on. I believed only old people had dementia so I didn't think about that at all. By this time, you were already about five years old and I tried my best to shield you away whenever your father started beating up your mother. Do you know the surprising part? Your mother never once stopped loving him. She knew something was wrong with him and pleaded with me to have him checked out in the hospital but I refused and you have no idea how much I blame myself because of that. One day, your father came to me crying as he pleaded with me to end his life because he hated the fact that he was hurting your mother. He said he could understand what was going on and he just needed the voices gone from his head but of course I refused to kill him and soon after, it was too late. He killed your mother, slit her throat and tore out her gut and only then did I notice that she had been carrying another child for him. He tried to kill you too but I wouldn't allow it and eventually when he came back to his senses, I watched your father's world break down. Never in my life did I think I would ever see my brother who was once the most feared human hunter be reduced to nothing. He became a shell of his former self, his eyes had no life in them at all and eventually before I could stop him, he killed himself. I found the letter he had written before he killed himself and in that letter, he requested that he be buried next to your mother and he gave me that pack address and asked me to drop you off there because he knew I wouldn't be able to take care of you properly and at that time, I was still getting used to being a hunter leader and my father blamed you and your mother for what happened to my brother so I had no other choice but to take you there. I broke the news to you and for a five/ six year old, I didn't expect you to understand but you did. You cried for a whole day but the next day, you were blank. You didn't speak nor cry and I knew you must have somehow blocked out everything from your mind. After dropping you off, I promised myself I was going to come get you after I had made a name for myself so I would be able to protect you when I brought you here and now, no one can challenge me like they did to your father. In his letter, your father asked me to make you a leader when you're old enough and that's what I'm going to do. I'm going to honor his dying wish no matter what because I blame myself for what happened to him and this is the only way I can redeem myself”...

NOTE!

I know it's long but you all needed a back story so here it is!