Daddy, don't flirt novel Chapter 409

Ryan jerks his head up instantly after hearing Jamie’s accusations. Her words are like the bright sunlight which envelops him fully, leaving him with nowhere to hide.

After that, he grabs his hair, and manages a muffled laugh. His laughter has no substance, as if it is a breeze that passes through deserted land.

She is right, he is no longer the Night. 9. Ever since he had let Jack knew about his formidable medical skills, he has become a selfish, twisted person, who has abandoned his past.

At first, he just wants to exist in Jamie’s world freely and unrestricted.

But as time goes by, he begins to feel jealousy and unwillingness to succumb to Dan who has been friends with Jamie two years prior to him. It is this simple fact that caused him to forever lose his chance to be with her.

He used to think that he would finally have his chance in England, but back then Jamie couldn’t forget Dan. Oftentimes, she would stare at Ian without averting her gaze, as if she could see through Ian and peek at someone beyond him. Ryan didn’t fail to recognize that she’s missing Dan.

Maybe she never knows that her love for Dan has caused her to lose herself momentarily. She has been by Dan’s side throughout her childhood too.

He always thought that he would have his chance in England, but in the end, she decided to go back.

Back to Dan’s side.

He’s not staying with them in England because he didn’t want to witness something undesirable with his own eyes. He couldn’t resign himself to it, he was angry and envious, why was Dan the only one who could have her love, even after five long years?

Dan has continuously hurt her, but her love never wavers. On the other hand, he has tried his best to be by her side, but they can only remain friends.

Ryan has been feeling wronged for too long, it is precisely these feelings of unwillingness and jealousy that has led to his destruction. These feelings have caused him to lose himself in doing all those ridiculous things.

He is determined to make sure that others can’t have what he couldn’t get his hands on.

His tendency has led to him forgetting that he should at all times protect Jamie, as his lifelong mission. But every time he lay eyes on her, he can’t control his inner demons and he would impulsively hurt her.

He really did all those awful things.

His love has turned into something hideous.

He is no longer able to control himself, to prevent himself from hurting her in the end. By hurting her, he could have some solace.

He used to think that he will get used to loving her for a long time, but it turns out he has gotten used to hurting her and this is an irreversible habit.

Jamie’s words that he is no longer that kind big brother to her has hit him hard. The boy in her memories is pure and gentle while the man in front of her now is dark and twisted.

“I can’t deny that you are really that kind of person, but in my memory, the big brother and Ryan are now two completely different persons.” Jamie quietly stares at him until he lets go of his messy hair and lifts his head to look at her.

“I’m really sorry for hurting you, I only realized now that all those years, I’m the one who has inflicted the most pain on you.” It is this realization that makes it hard for him to acknowledge that he had actually done all those things.

“I thought that I would never hurt you in the name of protecting you, but the truth is I have been hurting you all along.”

“Stop it, let bygones be bygones. It doesn’t matter if you apologize to him a million times, there’s no way I will forget about this. Perhaps it is a wrong decision for you to come here.” Jamie says lightly, her cold gaze no longer caring about Ryan who is now in a daze.

He really shouldn’t be here. If he has never come here, she would still think that this is just a coincidence, and they can continue being friends. After all, he has saved her and the child in her belly.

But now that he has revealed everything, there is no going back now. They can’t even be friends anymore.

Ryan is silent for a while, then he stands up, and looks at her with a deep gaze. He slowly heads towards the door, but he stops short and turns around, “Are we still friends in the future?”