Enigma novel Chapter 35

“So with that settled, we can start with the shifting while Cass forges the sword. I know it’s late but I want to talk to the boys now so we can start with the shifting tomorrow. Let’s get going then. I will talk to them at the meeting house. Get the eight of them there please.” I said to everyone. “Ryder will you please stay here with Aria and Ajax. I don’t want to take any more risk.”

“Sur…” Ryder started but was cut by a very enthusiastic Emersyn.

“We will stay here mom. Don’t worry about Aria.”

Ryder growled as Earl and Fallon nodded in agreement.

“Okay. Thank you sweetie.”

I heard Ryder mumble ‘stupid pups’ under his breath. I chuckled at the very angry Alpha which he returned with a playful glare. Oh my silly brother. I can’t express how much I love him.

The shifters started to leave and I turned towards the Knights. Cass and Grayson went to Steven to talk with.

“Long time no see.”

They hung their heads in embarrassment. They looked utterly mortified.

“Amy can I talk to you for a minute?” Alex said looking everywhere but in my eyes.

“Sure.”

We walked to the river shore. I didn’t turn around to look at him as the tension stretched between us.

“I know what I did wasn’t exactly right but I wasn’t in the right state of mind at the time. I didn’t want Arabella and my son into the pit of darkness I was in at the time. I am still suffering but I think I am ready to face them. Is it okay to meet them tomorrow?”

His voice was grave and expectant. I know he must have been in the worst state at the time but abandoning your children is not a good thing. The same children you made with the very mate you were grieving over. I know losing a mate is horrifying but leaving your children on the streets without any warning is also not a good thing.

“I don’t know Alex. It is up to them. Eros doesn’t know about you being his father. He is too young to know about things like these. We talked with Aria about this and she was more than okay with this arrangement. Aria on the other hand is not in the right state of mind at the moment. She is going through some mate issues and I don’t know if she would be up for any more emotional trauma. I won’t force her in it. I will ask her though.”

“Eros means god of love, right?” I nodded. “You gave him a really good name. I am glad you took them in. Please talk to Aria and tell me what she thinks. I would love to meet them. I know what I did wasn’t the right thing to do but I couldn’t think of anything other than running away from the place that took my mate from me. I am really sorry about it but I can’t change it now. I wish I had taken a different road than running away. Not only did I lost my mate, I also lost my children that day.”

His eyes were filled with unshed tears. I hugged him, rubbing his back as he sobbed in my arms.