Farewell To My Endless Love novel Chapter 303

Scarlett's POV:

Every time I was alone with William, I felt uncomfortable.

I knew that he loved me, but I just couldn't love him back. And no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't force myself to accept his love.

When I went back to my room, my two babies were sleeping in their crib. Every night, before going to bed, I would check their condition several times.

Looking at their pure, innocent faces reminded me of James.

The three of them looked exactly like each other. Each time looked at the twins, I felt as though I was looking at James' face as an infant, and it broke my heart.

And this awful pain reminded me that James ' death was an unforgivable sin that Charles and I committed together.

"Mom! Mom, I'm scared! Help! Help me, please!" 'It's James! That's his voice!' I remarked inwardly.

I fell into an unprecedented panic.

"James? Is that you?" I cried. "Don't be afraid, my love! Where are you? Mommy's coming! I'll be right there!"

Desperately, I ran into the depths of the fog. But for some reason, my little angel's voice was drifting further and further away.

I looked around, anxious to find him. But sadly, he was nowhere to be found. All of a sudden, I felt a scathing pain in my ankle, and then I fell into a vast sea.

The turbulent tides drowned me and I kept struggling underwater.

Gradually, the water filled my lungs, and the lack of oxygen began to blur my vision.

In a trance, I hallucinated about James. His little body was motionless, drifting into the cold tides. And slowly, he sank to the boundless sea before me.

With every ounce of strength I had in my body, I desperately reached for my baby boy and shouted in my heart.

'Somebody save him!

God! Please... save my boy!'

"No!"

I couldn't remember just how many times I had woken up from a nightmare similar to this one.

As I gasped for air, tears and sweat rolled down my face at the same time. With trembling hands, I fumbled to turn on the bedside lamp, looking around in a fit of panic.

It wasn't until I saw my twins sleeping soundly in their crib that my overwhelmed heart gradually calmed down.

Now, I was wide awake, so I opened the drawer of the bedside table and took out my laptop to begin working.

At present, I was working for a magazine. I didn't make much money, but it was enough to keep myself busy.

When I turned on the computer, the icon for Facebook began to flash. Upon clicking it, I found a message from Nina.

"Scarlett, why are you still up? Were you having a nightmare again?"

"It's because you've assigned so much work to me. I barely have the time to sleep," I bantered.

Previously, Nina found me through the periodical office I worked for. She said that she had opened a small company of her own, and was doing some legal aid work. She hoped that I could help her out.

I began writing some articles for her. And through this, we maintained contact with each other again.

"Well, you're a mother of two now. Just consider it as saving for their college fees."

After chatting with me briefly, Nina went offline.

She now had a family, so it was understandable that she had to focus on them. If we were to continue talking, it would only impose on the time she should be spending with Abner.

The next morning, while I was playing with the twins in the dining room and feeding them, William went downstairs.

He approached me, bent down, and gently picked up one of the twins.

"You're so cute!"

Due to being picked up so suddenly, the boy thought it was a game and he giggled happily.

"Goo, goo, gaa, gaa."

"Is he trying to speak?" William looked at me and chuckled.

"Maybe he's just trying to say that he's hungry."

I chuckled as well and took the child from him.

As I held the baby in my arms, I couldn't help but reminisce the past.

Charles would also do the same thing back then. Whenever James made babbling noises, Charles would insist that James was trying to speak.

When that thought crossed my mind, my heart ached because of the familiar pain. I took a deep breath, barely suppressing it.