Forbidden Heat novel Chapter 148

After telling me the truth he had kept hidden for so long in a flat voice with a stoned face, Lucien now had a look of clear concern in his eyes. It was easy for me to realize that he was worried about my feelings and was ready to comfort me.

Regardless of how I felt, which at that moment I couldn’t quite make out what exactly I was feeling, I realized very quickly that Lucien was right about one thing. The truth is useless.

The old me would have started crying a long time ago or somehow ended up an emotional sobbing wreck. However, no matter how shocked or shaken I felt at the news, my mind was clear, and it was quickly processing this information in light of how I should proceed into my future. Since when did I become a little heartless and a lot more calculating?

I liked Uncle David but I wouldn’t go as far as to say that I loved him or cared about him so much. The truth was I forgot all about him until Lucien handed me the photograph. It made no sense to get sentimental just because I found out he’s my biological father. What do blood ties even mean when he was never really there for me? It’s unfortunate that he was no longer in this world, but again, people die.

Death is a natural thing.

Very rapidly, my mind and emotions began to blame my father for all the misfortune that mother and I had to experience. I wondered if our lives would be different if he had stuck around as my mother’s husband and my father? I wonder if we would have been happier if we were just a normal and complete family? I wonder how my mother felt having to hide her relationship all the time while acting as a single mother? Finally, I wanted to know what good reasons did father have for abandoning us?

Would any reason be good enough, though? Probably not.

“I’m not crying. Are you shocked?” I asked Lucien teasingly as I flashed him a bright smile.

“Natalia…” Lucien whispered my name in wonder as my reaction surprised him.

“Thanks for telling me. It must have been difficult for you to bring this up after all this time. I’m ok…really,” I assured Lucien as best as I could.

“I see. I know it’s a lot to take in. Please don’t push yourself. I just want you to know that it doesn’t change who you are…” Lucien said before trailing off.

“You were right. This truth…is useless,” I replied with a small sigh as I closed my eyes for a bit. Father or no father, he was dead. They were both dead, my father and my mother. Both dead.

“Your father was a good man, Natalia. He made many sacrifices for his family…I just wanted you to know that. He loved you and your mother very much,” Lucien said sincerely.