Forbidden Heat novel Chapter 150

“Had enough already?” Lucien teased as he tucked a lock of my hair behind my ear. He used to do this a lot for me when I was younger and much shorter. Back then he would bend down to my level and fix my hair…

“Can you stand?” Lucien asked as he pulled me onto my feet and supported my waist my wrapping his arms around them.

The sudden movement of being pulled to my feet brought me back to my senses and I realized that I was standing very close to Lucien that the lengths of our bodies were practically touching. I shook my head a little to clear my head of the image of the younger and seemingly kinder Lucien that I just saw.

Why am I thinking of that right now?

“You better not be thinking of another man when you’re with me…” Lucien’s warning rang out sharp and clear.

Despite his harsh tone, the hand he patted the top of my head with was gentle and loving. This is so confusing…

“…I was thinking about you…Nothing!” I realized too late that I had mumbled my thought softly. Lucien just cocked his head slightly to the side. He probably doesn’t know how adorable I find this habit of his.

While my body wanted to enjoy a passionate night with him, my mind couldn’t wait for this to be over and done with. This whole ordeal is confusing me, and my mind didn’t like it. Seeing Lucien from the past and the present overlapping like a mirage in the back of my mind was not helping.

“Should we just do it?” I asked abruptly. To my own surprise, my voice did not waver.

“What do you mean…should we just do it…” Lucien asked solemnly as his removed his arm from around my waist.

Good question. Why did I say that? More like, why did I have to say it like that?

I looked down, unwilling to look into Lucien’s eyes. My hands were balled tightly into fists by my sides. I realized for the first time tonight that I was scared. I feared what I would find…or not find…if I looked into his eyes right now.

I felt Lucien’s stare on me even if I wasn’t looking at him, I could always feel his eyes on me. It had always been like this; Lucien was always watching me. Time continued to tick by as silence enveloped us. I couldn’t bring myself to look at him while he continued to stare at my downcast face.

Suddenly, I felt his large and warm hand cup my cheek. I fought against my natural reaction to look up because I knew that his face was right there in front of mine. I kept my eyes firmly down on the floor; however, his next words shocked me.