From Hell To Heaven novel Chapter 32

Akash POV

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I went to my angel's cabin. I opened the door to see my angel crying.

"Angel!" I called her, and she raised her head to look at me with her teary eyes. I walked close to her and held her hand and took her to my office personal bedroom. Then I sat on the bed and made her sit on my lap.

"You have a bedroom in your office also?" she asked trying to change the topic.

"Yes, I have a bedroom in our office also, but it's not important now" I told her firmly.

"Angel tell me one thing, is Sanaya and her words more important to you?" I asked her.

"No"she said softly.

"Then what your problem? Why are you crying? I know you will never let me down. Yesterday you were so confident about yourself and what happened to you today? Why do you let Sanaya's words enter in your brain? Tell me angel" I asked her.

"Because I lost my confidence Akash. I can't participate in the fashion show. I don't want to humiliate you" she said while crying. Her words made me angry.

"Listen Angel, don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and even worse conditions. So what? Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self-confident, and more and more successful. Remember this angel, I'm also here for you" I said placing a kiss on her forehead.

"You know what? Even I faced a lot of humiliations. I have even struggled with confidence in one of the most important aspects of my life: playing guitar. I felt completely confident in my work, but with guitar, it is a different story. Lately, I have been displeased and uncomfortable with my performance, instead of the ease that I used to play with. After every mistake, I would get down on myself and not shake it off, like one should. It has been hard for me to find out how to gain and reach confidence. I finally believed that I am a good player, and that I cannot let a pressure get to me. I am slowly building my confidence by believing in myself and trusting in my abilities," I said to her. She listened to me very carefully.

"Trust yourself. You know more than you think you do, if anyone ever says that you're no good. They're no better. Always remember you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." I said looking into her eyes.

"Now say angel, can you do it or not? Are you going to participate or not? Are you going to put boundaries around yourself?" I asked her.

"Akash, I promise you. I'm never gonna put boundaries on myself ever again.

I'm never gonna say 'I can't do it'.

I'm never gonna say 'maybe'.

I'm never gonna say, 'I don't think I can.'

I can and I will. Yes, I will participate in the fashion show, and I will show Sanaya, who is Dharani Mehra" my angel said confidently bringing a smile to my lips.

"Good and never say you are going to kill yourself even for fun. Understand? Then, you will face your punishment for it" I told her sternly.

"Punishment?? Then I will tell that. I will kill myself, what will you do?" She asked me with raised eyebrows.

I really can't believe. I'm hearing her say this. I kind of felt hurt and disappointed by the way she told she would kill herself. I know she told me for fun, but I seriously don't like it.

"You know what, just leave it. I don't want to talk to you" I told her angrily, and before I tried to get up to leave she called me.

"Akash wait!" she suddenly pulled me as she tucked my shirt and instantly drew me back making me fall right on top of her.

" I...I'm sorry if I might have hurt your feelings with what I said...I didn't mean to hurt... I just said that playfully for teasing you. Please forgive me. Please don't angry with me" she said and pouting her lips.

There...my heartbeat was beating faster again and my eyes just exploring her pouting lips.

Damn!! You woman don't pout like that!!

"Please say something Akash! Am I forgiven?" she asked me hopefully.

"So you want my forgiveness?" I asked her, and she nodded her head in 'Yes'.

"Ok! Kiss me and I'll forgive you" I told her. I couldn't help but stare into her wide surprised big doe eyes and her cheek turning into tomato red.

"What?? No! I am not going to kiss you" she turned her head and closed her mouth with her palms.

"Ok then! I will not forgive you" I said and tried to get up once more, but she held my collar.

"Wait! Wait! Ok, I will give you a kiss, but one condition. You'll have to close your eyes" she said shyly.

"Seriously angel? We have kissed so many times, and now you want me to close my eyes" I asked her with irritation.

"Please Akash!" she said.

I muttered "stubborn angel!!"

"All right, I will close my eyes" I told her. Anyways she is going to kiss me. That's what is going to matter now. I shut my eyes, and I waited for her lips to touch mine. And finally her lips touched but not on my lips, it's touching my forehead. I opened my eyes and glared at her. She is struggling not to laugh at me.