Goodbye You Never Loved Me novel (Martha and Stefan) novel Chapter 134

Martha once loved him heart and soul, but he...
Stefan looked down on the ground and clenched his fists with more strength. His hoarse voice said heavily, "I'm so stupid that I mistook Hollie for that girl. You would not have had such a miserable experience but for me."
Martha sneered at his words, "I'm not here for your repentance."
It was useless for him to say so now.
She was not in the mood to listen to it. The only thing she wanted now was to be done with him as soon as possible.
Slightly, she turned her head away so as to keep her eyes off his dispirited and remorseful face.
"Stefan, you just turn my stomach now."
Stefan felt a pain like a sharp knife piercing the deepest part of his heart.
She was unwilling to forgive him.
She now didn't believe him anymore as he didn't believe her before.
Taking a deep breath, Martha regained her sense and said impassively, "If you do feel guilty about me, then show me your good faith."
Stefan's pupils shrank in shock. He knew what she meant.
But he... he didn't want to satisfy her need, he didn't want to divorce her, let alone set her free.
With his thin lips parted and dark eyes, Stefan said, "You want the Doyle Group? I can give it to you."
"No, I don't need your charity. I'll win it back by myself."
Her indifferent decisiveness broke his illusion.
Did she still want to divorce him?
"Stefan, sign the divorce agreement. Let me go. And let yourself go."
She wanted to get rid of the bygones and began her new happy life.
And the bane of her life was the man in front of her.
Stefan didn't dare to meet her eyes and looked down. His throat constricted at the moment which made his voice extremely hoarse. He asked, "Can we... Can we not get divorced?"
"No."
Without hesitation, Martha spoke it out powerfully.
The man's heart ached at her answer. A shiver ran down his spine.
Blood was still dripping down from his hand. It was especially pungent in such a depressing atmosphere.
He desperately wanted to keep her in his area and in his sight.
But he was afraid. He was afraid she would hate him. He also didn't want her to relapse and lose control of her emotions.
Stefan became more and more depressed. The air seemingly became colder and colder in the study.
But Martha stood at the door quietly as if she didn't feel it, waiting for his answer.
After a while, the man opened his mouth feebly, saying in a sorrowful tone-
"Is that all you want now?"
Martha compressed her lips, her eyes dark.
Of course, what she wanted now was not only the divorcement.
She needed him to save Jimmy. She wanted Jimmy to get recovered.
But before she told him about their child, she had to have him sign on the divorce agreement. Otherwise... She was worried that the man would keep her around by all means.
Stefan didn't hear Martha's refusal this time. His broken heart seemed to get an elixir, and his hope was back.
He could give her whatever she wanted as long as she didn't divorce him.
As long as she could stay with him peacefully.
Stefan knew he didn't deserve to have Martha stay, but he wished she could give him one more chance.
Now, he clearly felt his heart beat vigorously again.
He held his breath and walked to Martha slowly.
The wound scratched by the glass was still bleeding. It dripped a lot along the way he walked to her, but he didn't feel the pain at all but gazed at the woman who he owed too much to.
Finally, he stopped where there was a step away from Martha and said hoarsely, "Please give me a chance to compensate you. I promise. You will never be hurt."
Martha didn't respond to his words. He was so afraid to hear her refusal again that he said eagerly like a child, "It was all my fault. Please, give me one more chance."
Martha didn't show her being touched at all. She turned sideways and sneered.
Never be hurt? How satirical!
She stared at Stefan, and a taunt came out from her red lips.
"I will never be hurt if you get away from me."
All her sufferings were caused by him.
Perhaps Martha would have a much better life than she imagined if she had never met Stefan.
At that moment, Stefan felt like he was falling into an icy abyss. Her words made him feel heartbroken again. His strength was drained and he could hardly stand.
He choked with sobs and he could hardly say a word to reply to Martha.
In his dark eyes, there was a sense of failure which seemed to never vanish.
Stefan looked frustrated. He felt much more painful by her word than by being pierced by a sword.
"What should I do to keep you around?"
"The rift between us can never be healed completely."
She only needed a perfect relationship. If not, she would rather give it up.
It was too late for the man to keep her love.
Martha put on a faint, mocking smile. She not only mocked at him but also at the girl she used to be.
Then her eyes were gradually dim. She said in an extremely calm tone, "Stefan, the girl called Martha who loved you before has died on the operating table. And it was you who sent her there."
The man frowned, his eyes full of regret.
He clenched his fists hard which made his blue vein stand out on his hands and the blood drip down faster.
Drop by drop. The blood soon spread to his feet. But he seemed not to notice it.
At this moment, he looked cadaverous, his eyes dulled.
After Martha spoke out her feeling, she disguised her frustration in her eyes and said tersely, "Now that you don't want to talk about the divorce, well, I'll leave then. During this time, I'll live in my place. After Hollie is convicted, I will meet you in the court for divorcement."
Martha was about to turn and leave after she finished.
No sooner had she turned than her wrist got grasped by his large hand.
She struggled but failed to get rid of it, and she frowned in displeasure.
Stefan buckled her hands tightly. With his lips moving, he wanted to say something to persuade her to to stay.
Before he made it, Martha's indifferent voice said-
"Let me go."
Stefan felt wrenched at heart by thinking of his mistakes.
He now had no right to ask her to stay with him, did he?
The curse of Hollie reverberated in his mind again and again-
"Stefan, I can't get you, nor will I let Martha get you... She will never forgive you because it was you who caused her the misery!"
Would Martha never forgive him?
However, he just realized how much he loved her. How could he give up and let her go?
Stefan showed a grief on his face. And finally, he had to loosen his grip but still stared at her.
After Martha felt that she was free from his control, she left without turning back.
Stefan gazed at her receding figure. He wished deadly that she would glance back at him. But nothing happened.
She, indeed, didn't love him anymore.
The wound still bled, but his body had been numb.
He was overwhelmed by the heartache. Such pain was much more unbearable than that of losing his parents.