Sometimes, I just found myself staring at nowhere, thinking about those things that I did that resulted the things that are happening to me right now.
Life really is unpredictable. It is true that...we make our own destiny, but we don't know what happens next. Everything might change in everything we speak, in everything we do, and every single thing that might change a situation.
Seeing Daryl sleep beside my children is not the one I imagined it to be. This is so beyond that.
I am angry at him. But I can't also dare seeing him plead like that, tired like that.
Did I grow feelings on him again?
I closed my eyes and just walked towards the balcony. I don't think I will be able to sleep today. My head is full of uncertain events, I'm very tired.
Even from the past days, I was so tired. Daryl gave me lots of works to do. I barely see him but when I did, he was with my children.
This is what I am talking about. I don't know what might happen next. I don't know what might be there tomorrow... what will be that another surprise that could either break my heart, or fill me with happiness. I don't know.
I didn't even realize that I already fell asleep. I just knew it when I feel my kids jumping on the bed.
How did I end up on the bed? Well probably Daryl.
“Good morning Momma!” They both greeted me while jumping to reach my direction.
Seeing them play right now, seeing them in front of me right now, is somewhat wholesome. It's giving me chills and I like this very much; I love this feeling very much. This is how a mother can feel when they have an interaction with their children. Maybe I just miss them so much.
I get up to bed and I met Daryl’s eyes, I don't know, i can see different kinds of emotions in his eyes and that is making my insides feel something I shouldn't have feel.
I look away because it is not good, I don't like this kind of effect on me I don't want this kind of effect from him.
When my children pulled me out of the bedroom, I immediately saw Julius sleeping tiredly on the sofa. I refrain from looking at him because I don't think I can forgive him that easily right now.
“Momma, I don't know why but I saw lots of lots of guards outside.” Baby Red said while looking at the door.
That got my attention. I turned to look at him whose pouting while directly looking at the door.
“Did you go out?” I asked softly.
He raised his head and shook it.
“I saw the tall guy talked to them this morning.” He said cutely.
I didn't intend to look at Daryl but I did.
Daryl looked at me too, he's looking serious and for the first time I can't read his expressions.
“Hey dude!”
I blinked when I saw my baby Blue in front of Daryl immediately. I caught my breath up and tried to talk but no words came out.
“You are so tall. Will I become tall as you tomorrow?” He asked innocently.
I can't help but hide a smile inside my head. That was one clever question, baby.
“Mommy up.” My baby Red said extending his hands for me.
I get him up while looking at Daryl and Blue. I bite my tongue. Pain crossed my heart for some time.
“No baby. It will take more than tomorrow.” He said while pulling him up too.
“You look old..but yeah, you look good.” I heard Blue said.
Daryl smiled and glanced at me.
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