Heart Of A Beast novel Chapter 37

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Baby, I want you now more than ever...

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After Fiona walk-off Helen turn to glare at me, if it wasn't that I was in no mood for jokes I'd be laughing at her expression I turn away from her but she pulls me back.

"What the hell is going on?" She asked.

"I hate Damien!, he's a beast and he deservess to die!"I burst out then regretted it immediately, I mean which mother would be happy hearing me speaks about her son that way. "Oh Helena I'm so sorry I didn't mean it" I apologize immediately but when I look at her she doesn't seem mad or anything.

"Yes Damien is a beast, you should know that it isn't going to be easy controlling or handling him, there were times I felt that way as a mother, it just that Damien can't help things he does sometimes, he has grown up to be selfish, possessive of his love ones, I guess that happens when you carry the weight of the world on your shoulder. Did you know how old he was when he became an Alpha?" Helena asked, brushing a tear away from her face.

"What age?" I managed to groan out, I was still boiling with anger but for Helena's sake I'm going to listen to his pathetic story.

"He was ten, what does he knowabout the leadership at such age? I remember crying and pleading with his father that he wasn't ready, that same night, rogues from other kingdoms broke into the packhouse and killed nearly hundreds of guards, including Damien's younger brother, I was captured as well and almost killed, they demanded that Damien gave up the throne, it was horrible, after Damien had saved me and protect the pack members, we knew only he could protect us. Only his beasts could make sure we are alive and protected. Most times he can't even control what they do"

I find myself melting a little bit but I still kept my straight face up.

"Rina, I'm not telling you to forgive Damien or anything, I just want to help you understand him better, Damien isn't a villain I swear to God. He just doesn't have a heart. And anything his beast put their minds on, there was no going back. When he saw that unmated werewolf on you, his instance was to kill the guy and protect you. He has trust issues. Damien only trusts the beast inside him"Helena paused and look out of the window.

"I know why you both haven't mated. Fiona is here temporary and you're letting your jealousy rules things around here. Don't let her to you, you happento be her Luna, after Damien is you. Damien told me he couldn't mark you cause he's afraid you might die if he did. Having to get a mark once isn't easy there's the pain and all. But you have to mark two times, by his wolf and by his vampire"Then she chuckled. "Luckily demons don't mate."

Then she turnss around her face serious."I shouldn't tell you this okay? Damien would be angry if I find out. He isn't the one with the mistresses you know? It was his demon, Damien started having sex with females at the age of nine" I gasped trying hard not to blush.

"His demon needs sex, and a lot of him to survive. It's sex, anger, and red-blooded demon that why you see that Damien can't do without you know" Helena laugh shaking her head.

"Look at me Rina, they're just sex objectss, you are his queen, the one destined to be his queen, the one meant to rule by his side, and I think that should be beyond sexual pleasures, when the right time comes, it's going to come naturally without fear, Damien is working towards that. I know deep in my heart, you would make Damien have a heart once again. It's showing in him"Helena explained.

By now all the anger in me already melted, I felt so bad for saying those words to Damien, I claim to be his mate and I can't even understand him, the tears started to come, and the anger again, this time it was directed at myself.