Her possessive alpha novel Chapter 100

　　A duty to please

　　This was strange, how could she prefer the touch of a stranger to the touch of the one she was supposed to spend the rest of her life with? The mate bond gave the answer to that question. She noticed that Ray was still kissing her; she found it strange that he was enjoying this whereas she wasn't. Didn't he know that what he was giving her was far from pleasure? She felt bad about how she felt; Lucas's touch was supposed to be the one that repelled her, but no, it was exactly the other way around.

　　Ray then brought his hand to touch her breasts, and she pulled away from his kiss at that moment, panting heavily. He saw her expression and dropped his head in his hand, he was disappointed but tried well to hide it.

　　"I'm sorry," she muttered.

　　"No, no, I should be the one apologizing, I know how you said we should wait and all, but I find it hard to restrain myself whenever I'm with you."

　　Ray reminding Ava of the reason she refused him whenever he tried made her guilty the more. Whenever he tried to touch her in the past, she'd told him she wanted to wait until they were joined, that she didn't want to have sex with him outside their union, he loved her for this and respected her so much for her decision. She'd kept her virginity for Ray, and just like that she gave it all to Lucas last night without him even asking, like the fool she was.

　　She wished she could tell Ray everything here and now, she knows he'd forgive her but she just couldn't bring herself to say it. Ava wished she and Ray had that form of closure that made it hard for couples to keep things from each other, but she knew it was all just wishful thinking.

　　She leaned closer to hug Ray, pulling him into her arms, he rested his head on her bosom, and her hands found their way into his blonde curls, stroking. Ray wasn't bad at all, even his kisses weren't; she just didn't know why she couldn't feel anything for him even though she'd tried so hard. She felt his breath against her chest then and looked down at him.