Her Volkovs #Book 1 novel Chapter 35

Belle's POV

I feel the chills reaching down my spine. I'm sitting on the bed, my back is resting on the head board while I'm curling my knees to my chest. My panties are still on my legs and my tears have gone dry on my cheeks. My femme hurts and I can see little drips of blood on my thigh. I'm staring at the blood that has stained the sheets.

I'm feeling numb. I can't seem to find the right emotion. All I want to do is sit still and stare blankly. It's as if my world just took a sudden halt.

A few moments later Alexei came barging in the room, he has a cut on his lip and he looks frantic. He knelt right next to me and attempted to hold me.

"No please don't touch me Alexei." At this point my tears are again threatening to fall.

He saw the blood on the sheets. He then inspected me and saw the blood on my thigh. I tried to cover it but Alexei already saw the drips of blood. He took off his jacket and wrapped it around my arms.

Alexei paced back and forth next to the bed while running his fingers through his hair. He then forcefully swipes the lamp and everything on top of the small table beside the bed. I did not stop him. I just remained in my position in silence. I know he is blaming himself for what happened to me but its really not his fault. Moments later, Alexei has completely lost it. He smashed everything that he could see in the room. He pushed the cabinets and tables to the floor and he screams every time he destroys something. I on the other hand did not move a muscle. I'm still on my exact position. Still feeling numb.

When everything in the room has been destroyed, Alexei sat on the floor right next to the bed. He rested his back on the side of the bed and looks down all defeated.

"I want to leave this place Alexei."

Alexei stood up and carries me in his arms out of the room. His men are already waiting for us outside. We went out of the house on a different exit where Alexei's car is already waiting.

"I can't go back to Amy like this Alexei. She cant see me like this."

"We will go to my mother. It's a few hours drive but you will be safe there." I did not answer him.

"Can I borrow your phone?"

Alexei took his phone from his side pocket, tapped his phone direct to the dialer and handed it to me. I dialed Amy.

"Hello?" Said Amy. Oh god, I feel like I'm going to sob hearing Amy's voice.

"A."

"B!? What's wrong? I swear if anything bad happened to you, I don't care if that Nikolai is the king of the world, I am going to kill him!"

"A, I'm okay. I just can't go home tonight."

"Oh, so you're with Nikolai? Alexei?"

I quickly interrupt her.

"Book the flight A."

"What?"

"Book the flight home."

I can sense that Amy realized that I have already made up my mind.

"Okay B. You take care okay? Go home as soon as you can."

"Okay. I love you."

I returned the phone to Alexei. I then turn to my side facing the window. I adjusted Alexei's jacket to cover my arms intertwined in front of me. I feel like I'm cold as ice. I just stare outside blankly.

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"Princess..."

I was awaken by the soft voice of Alexei. I am already in his arms while carrying me inside a room. He places me on the bed slowly. A woman perhaps in her fifties entered the room. Her hair is brunette. Her wrinkles show on the side of her eyes when she lets out a smile. She then kisses Alexei on his forehead and on his lips. She looks at him like they understood each other without even saying a word. She sits on the bed beside us while looking at me intently. Her eyes are full of warmth yet I can sense that she's also a tough woman. She places her hand on my hand and taps it slowly.

"Rest now our Yelena."

Alexei quickly interrupts her. "Matushka!"

She looks at me while smiling. "We will be introduced tomorrow. Tonight you rest." She said with this very thick Russian accent.

I offered her a faint smile. She left us in the room and closed the door on her way out.

Alexei pulled the cover and placed it on top of my legs.

"I'll be back."

I rested my head on the pillow and looked at the ceiling blankly. Tonight, I finally lost my virginity to Nikolai but it did not even come close to what I thought and expected. I lost my virginity, the Nikolai way. I chuckle escaped my mouth. I guess I had this one coming. He told me to stop him but I did not. I was just too naive to think that my very first would be all kisses, fireworks and love.

Moments later, Alexei went back with a basin of water and a towel.

"Alexei, you don't have to do this. Nikolai did not force me. I let him do this to me." I said while holding on to his arm. I want to let him know that this is not his fault.

Alexei however did not respond. He took the towel from the basin, squeezed it to remove the excess water and wipes my face. I then turn my back on him and collected my hair to the side so he can take off my necklace. I removed the silver hair comb attached to my hair and my earrings while he unzipped my dress on the back slowly.

Alexei slowly takes off my dress from my shoulders down to my breasts. I took off the sleeves and remove myself from my gown. He then pulls the gown down my legs and hurls it beside the bed.

I slowly take off my bra while Alexei pulled my panties down and hurled it right next to my dress. I am now naked, sitting in bed, my arms are covering my breasts and my legs are held together while Alexei cleans the towel in the basin.

When he turns to face me, he just waited for my next move. I don't know why, but this is how much I trust Alexei. I would even trust him with my own life. I slowly spread my legs for him. I can see that Alexei is now looking at me, all of me. He looks me in the eyes, then my breasts, down my now bare femme. I feel like everything suddenly moved in slow motion.

He wipes the blood from my inner thigh and trails the towel delicately on my femme. I really could not fathom Alexei. Just a while ago he destroyed everything in the room where Nikolai took my virginity like he can kill anyone who gets in his way. Now he touches me so delicately you would even think he cant kill a fly.

After wiping my femme, he handed me a white sleeping gown. I put it on and went back resting my head on the pillow. Alexei said good night and kissed me on my hair. He was about to leave but I reached for his hand. I want him to stay beside me. I don't want to feel left alone again.

"Don't go Alexei. Sleep with me."

I lie on my side as he slips under the covers and spoons me. "Sleep now my princess."

I tried to close my eyes to sleep but my mind keeps on flashing back the memories of what happened between Nikolai and I.

I just cried in silence.

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My eyes flickered when I was awaken by two little boys looking at me directly on my face all too closely. One of them placed his hand on my face. Who are these kids?

When they realized I'm already awake, they covered their mouths with their hands. They ran as fast as they can outside the room.

My eyes are still heavy. My femme still hurts. And the virgin Mary is all gone. I trailed my hand to my right but Alexei is not beside me anymore. I stood up and walked outside the room. The house is simple yet cozy. The walls have floral wallpaper and the furniture are shiny wood and soft cotton fabrics.

I walked the hallway barefoot. As I approach what seems to be the living room, the two kids are peeking and giggling at me being all playful. I tiptoed towards their direction and as soon as they see I'm coming close to them, they ran towards the kitchen.

Alexei's mother is on the kitchen slicing some vegetables. He scolded the two boys for running and bothering me.