Having a headache, remembering his most painful things, Brian could not control his mood and his tone was angry mixed with resentment.
He continued.
“I don't want to care that. I want to forget everything, but I can't. I can't get my mother's death out of my head. I hate him as much as I hate that woman. If she had not been sheltered by her family and allowed my mother to scold her or beat her to vent my mother’s rage, my mother would not jump off the building."
Until now Winnie did not know that he was deeply resentful. He hated not only his father and the woman, but also the woman's family had become sinners in his heart.
Winnie remained silent. She just reached out her hand and took Brian's arm and made him lie down again. She continued to massage him.
“Now I don't know what to advise you. If you find your hate better, you can continue to do so.”
Winnie had nothing to say, Brian's hatred was too deep like Penny. She would fail to persuade him.
"I don't want to hate. They made me. Why didn't they think about my sister and me and why did they hurt us?"
"My sister and I were not at fault, so why should we suffer?"
"......"
Brian seemed to be struggling, with his voice getting weaker and weaker, until Winnie heard the sound of well-balanced breathing.
Winnie knew that Brian's head was not so painful, and he would go to sleep with the exhaustion of torture.
"Brian, don't you feel familiar with what you just said? Don't you fear the children will ask you the same question when they grow up?"
Winnie spoke in a very low voice. She wanted Brian to hear her, but she was afraid he would hear her.
She had said that to Brian, but she did not know whether he took it to heart.
Winnie looked at the face that she missed every day. Winnie suddenly felt that she also had a lot of people to hate, but in her life hate was the most insignificant thing, she would not let hate affect her life.
Winnie's legs went numb. She leaned out to get a pillow. Then she let Brian lie down on the pillow and got up.
After standing by the bed for a while, she turned off the bedroom light, leaving only a dim bedside lamp.
She went to the window and drew the curtain again. When there was only a crack left, she stopped and stood looking out.
In the past, when she was pregnant here, every time Brian left her, she would stand here and look at his tall and straight back through the gap of the curtain.
Now finally she saw all of him, but her heart was hurt.
Nothing had changed, not even the curtains, but her mood was completely different.
After drawing the curtain, Winnie walked over to the bed and sat down next to Brian, feeling that she could not get enough of that cold face.
But he was not hers. Nostalgia would only make herself hurt deeper.
Brian finally said what was in her heart, but Winnie felt she could not help at all. Promising Stella to help make up the relationship between Brian and Rufus, it seemed to be an impossible thing.
Perhaps Brian would listen to Wendy's persuasion, after all, she was the person he loved.
Reminding of Wendy, Winnie felt upset. No matter Wendy had come here or not, this was her man's place.
Thinking of this, Winnie got up. Her task had been completed and she should leave.
She gently opened the drawer, looking for a car key, but she found none.
Without a car, the only way she could leave there was to walk down the hill.
Winnie glanced back at Brian before opening the door and leaving the bedroom.
She came to the courtyard out of the villa. As the cold wind was blowing, Winnie found herself wearing very little, but if she went back for clothes, she would wake Brian.
Finally she decided to walk down the mountain, and it would not be cold after waking for a while.
But just as she was moving forward, Brian suddenly pushed the door open and came out.
"Winnie..."
A roar of anger stopped Winnie. As she turned to speak, Brian rushed over and tightly embraced her in the arms.
"Are you crazy, it's so late and it's so cold. You've just recovered. Do you want to go back to the hospital?"
Brian questioned angrily, but only he knew that he was worried about Winnie.
When he wanted to hold Winnie's hand in his deep sleep, he was disappointed that he did not touch her soft hand and immediately got up.
Winnie was not in the bathroom or the dressing room, Brian knew she must have left, so he pulled open the curtains and looked out. Fortunately, Winnie had not left the yard.
His heart was like finding his home as he saw Winnie.
"It's time that I should go home. You're right now, I..."
Winnie was still in his warm arms. In the cold wind, his arms were like a warm quilt so and she did not want to leave.
"I still have a headache."
Brian had no reason to keep Winnie stay, so he could only say so.
"Go back with me, Kevin will take care of your family."
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