His Doll novel Chapter 29

After Few months

Devika's p.o.v

" Abhinav, please go slow...you are hurting me. Ahh!! Please.. stop it, "I am almost crying because of his hard thrust. It's been hours since he is inside me.

He almost choked my neck and said dangerously," Bear with it".

Saying that he again gave a hard thrust. I am feeling pain and exhaustion. 

"Please, I am feeling pain, "I told him crying. This time he slapped my face hard. The impact was so hard that my face started stinging and I felt blood in the corner of my lips. 

He grabbed my chin tightly and said into my ear," did I tell you to speak? Hmm? Then why are you speaking? Just lay down beneath me."

Saying that he kissed my lips and continued his pounding inside me.

After another hour he stopped and I took a relief of breath. We are both naked on the bed panting very hard. We are sweating even though the AC is on.

He nuzzled on my shoulder and said seductively," My doll!! you are like a drug for me. what are you doing with me? huh!! I can't resist myself around you! You are making me lose my sanity!! Saying that he rested his one hand on my belly and I felt shivered. His every touch always makes my whole system filled with fear.

" Don't talk when I fuck you. It ruins my mood. I am sorry if I exhausted you. What can I do!! You know very well that how much I love myself inside you. How much I love to bury myself inside you roughly," saying all these he kissed my shoulder and left bosom.

I didn't say anything because I have nothing to say. I am feeling pain in my whole body. When it's about intimacy, he becomes a wild animal. What would have happened if he behaved a little gentler with me!!! He doesn't care about me. He doesn't care I am feeling pain or not. He is only after his pleasure.

I wrapped a thin quilt around me to hide my naked body.

" Don't forget to take the pill. I don't want to be a father so soon," saying that he went towards his side on the bed and closed his eyes for sleep. After some time I heard his snores indicating he is asleep.

Slowly I got down from the bed. I couldn't even stand up properly. The area between my legs is paining too much.

With limping legs, using the help of the furniture I walked towards the table and opened its drawer. I took out a birth control pill and gulped it down with a glass of water.

He doesn't want to be a father so soon and I also don't want any innocent life in this loveless marriage. If I give birth to any child than the child will suffer the most between us.

I didn't think further and returned to the bed. I laid down there beside him. He told me that I don't have to sleep on the floor anymore. I am grateful towards God that I am not sleeping on the floor anymore.

I am lying on the bed but there is no sleep in my eyes. I am thinking about everything. About this marriage's future.

I always wanted a person who will love me, cherish me and give respect to me but my luck is so cruel to me that it gave me a person whom I don't even understand. I am adjusting with him. There is no love between us. I don't know what he feels for me but for him, I only feel fear.

Recently I am not understanding his behaviour. For the last few months, he has again gotten back into his previous beastly mood.

Sometimes he behaves so nicely and sometimes he behaves like a beast. Sometimes he cares for me like I am his everything and sometimes he treats me like trash. What does he actually want I don't know.

I am grateful to him for one thing that he permitted me for continuing my study though he didn't permit me to use phone, hang out with friends and do other things.

I have to be with Arushi always and his guards are always with me like super glue. He fears that I will escape with another man, that's why his guards always keep watching on me. Heck!! This man!! Why he thinks so low about me.!!

He has given me a limited time for college. If I become late for some reason than he punishes me by slapping or beating me with his belt or thick sticks. After hurting me, he apologised to me so badly like he is really sorry. His mood always changes just like the wind changes its direction. Seeing his weird conditions I have to always forgive him.

One day I requested him to return the company to my ma and most surprisingly he agreed and the next day he told me that he has given back the company to ma. I was surprised that he listened to my words.

 Ma didn't contact me till now and I am still angry with her. Until she calls me first, I will not talk with her. But, I am happy that my ma doesn't have to work as a swiper anymore.

Sometimes he behaves like a lover and sometimes he behaves like a completely mad person. He doesn't beat me daily but when his mood become ruined for any reason, he unleashed his anger on me by scolding and beating me. 

What will be my future with him I don't know. I hope that one day everything will be ok. After thinking like an eternity, when I drifted into sleep I don't know.

At morning

We are having breakfast silently. Abhinav, Arushi, Arnav and I are sitting at the dining table. Maids are serving food. Ruhani ma has returned to her house and Avantika is now living with her in-laws. Abhinav told me that I don't have to sit on the floor anymore and eat boiled meat anymore. I am grateful to God that now I can eat like a normal person.

Everyone is silent when Abhinav said with his usual impassive tone," Next week is our first marriage anniversary. I am holding a get together."

Listening to him, I become shocked and started counting all the months mentally. I have spent my one year in this house with him!! I can't believe it!! How quickly time passes!! It's been one year since we are married!! 

Arnav and Arushi congratulated Abhinav and me. I can see Arnav is not that happy but Arushi is too much happy. I just gave a small smile to them and Abhinav said nothing. He is always expressionless.

"Avantika and her in-laws will be also here," he said sipping his coffee.

I tried to ask him about my family that why doesn't he invite my family also. He looked at me and said," Your mother will be also here. I know how much you miss her".

I am looking at him dumbfounded. How did he know what am I thinking!!  And why he agreed so easily. This man is totally unpredictable.

After having breakfast, Arnav has already left for his Clinic. Arushi has gone to college. I am not feeling well, I am still sore down there so I decided to stay at home.

Abhinav is ready for his office. He will just leave our room when he told me," Umm.. I have forgotten a file in my study room. Go and bring the file for me".

I don't know which file he is talking about.  I asked him," Which file are you talking about?"

" A file with the red cover. You will find it on my table. Now, go hurriedly. I am getting late, "He snapped at me.

I didn't waste any time and walked fast to his study room. Normally, no one is allowed in his study room. I am surprised that he told me to bring his file.

I entered his study room and walked to the table. But, I didn't find any red file. So, instinctively I started searching. 

After searching for some time I realized that there is no red file. Then I noticed the drawer of his table. Maybe the file is inside it. 

Without any further thinking, I opened it and found the file. Finally!! I took out the file and when I will just close the drawer I noticed some pills inside the drawer.

Like a curious kid, I picked up the pills and tried to understand what kind of pill are those. And most importantly why these pills are here in his study room.

Is he having those pills.? But, why would he be having pill? He isn't ill. He is completely fine.

I started reading the description of the pills. Before I could read properly, I heard footsteps. I understood that someone is coming.

Immediately I hid the pills inside the drawer and closed the drawer. I looked at the door and an angry Abhinav entered.

He marched at me with full rage and snatched the file from my hand. He slapped on my face and said angrily, " Were you sleeping here? Why were you taking so long?.

I lowered my head and didn't say anything. His slapping is now so common for me that I didn't give any reaction.

He ordered me to leave his study room right now. Saying sorry I left his study room. But, those pills matter isn't leaving my mind. Why is he having pill and if he is having them than for which problem he is having them!!.

Abhinav's p.o.v