His Doll novel Chapter 54

Devika's p.o.v

When he tried to touch my children I completely lost it.

I am feeling too much angry and helpless thinking that I am here to meet this man and I have to live with him again.

He looked at me so innocently like he has never done any kind of crime. Looking at him I am sure that his days inside the white cell are not going that great. His eyes are puffy and dark circle are clearly visible under his eyes. He is looking quite older than his actual age and he has become thin. He is looking like a thin stick.

He asked me standing up with a hurtful voice," What happened, devika? Why aren't you permitting me to touch our children?"

I was going to again scold him when I remembered that I have taken the responsibility to help this psycho. And Ruhani ma informed me that without my love and care that's impossible. Loving this psycho is impossible for me but I think I can pretend. Without doing this I am not seeing any kind of way.

Putting aside my all disgust I said to him normally," I have come here to take you to our house. We will live there together."

" Which house? Isn't it our house? We can live here. Don't you like it here anymore?" He asked me all those questions and I become surprised. He has forgotten many things. So, Ruhani ma was right. He was imagining me with him inside this hospital cabin.

I said smiling," No, I don't like it here anymore. It's also not good for you. Let's go home. I will take care of you there".

He didn't ask me anything further and like a lost puppy, he followed me. I talked with the doctor regarding his medicines and other things.

The doctor informed me," Apart from the medicine, keep him happy and give him whatever he wants. Reminds him about the good times you spent with him. Tell your other family members to do the same"

Hearing the doctor I mentally laughed."Good Times!! We never spent any good times. The whole 2 years I have spent with him was filled with my crying and begging for mercy in front of him!!

After consulting the doctor I took him to the Agnihotri mansion. After coming back into this hell I am again remembering those painful memories and a tear roll down from my eyes without my knowing.

I didn't have to knock at the door because the Agnohotri's are already here in front of the main door to receive him. Seeing them he became afraid and hid behind me like a kid.

A 31-year-old kid!! For God's sake!! How many kids I have to take care of!

Arnav said almost crying," Welcome home, bhai. We missed you a lot. Without you, the whole house was feeling empty".

Saying that he tried to touch Abhinav's hand when Abhinav clutched my saree's edge and asked me," Who is he devika? I don't know him?"

I said holding his hand," He is your brother. And the two girls are your sister and the lady is your Ruhani ma. Don't you remember them?"

I can see the hopeful eyes of his family members. He is looking at them intensely like he is studying them.

After examining them he said loudly," They are not my siblings. My siblings are dead. My mother is dead. Everyone is dead. Only devika is with me. I don't know any of them"

Saying that he covered his face with my saree's edge and tried to hide. He is crying and looking afraid. I sighed and understood that his condition is really out of control. Even he has forgotten his full name. He only remembers his nickname Abhi. I am feeling bad for his family members that Abhinav doesn't remember them. But, I don't know why Abhinav only recognise me. The bond we share isn't that strong like the bond he shares with his family members. Then why! Maybe I should ask the doctor.

I looked at his family members and found them crying. I am not understanding how should I console them. So, without wasting any time I decided to go to that bedroom which I despise most.

Entering the room I am remembering those painful days and nights I spent in this room. Few drops of tear escaped from my eyes but very soon I composed myself thinking that I am here just for a few days.

At Night

" How can you just move with that monster? Did you just forget what he had done with you?" Apeksha Di yelled over the phone.

She is very angry with me after hearing that I have returned to the Agnihotri mansion with Abhinav. I tried to convince her but she isn't understanding. After scolding me for half an hour over the phone she cut the call. I have sent Ruhi and Neel to Apeksha Di's house for someday until I return to my house.

I placed the phone on the table and turned to the bed where I found him playing with my children. He picked up Dipti in his arms and I can hear my baby's happy sound seeing her father.

He said touching Dipti's nose," What will my Princess become when she will grow up? I can not wait to give you piggyback ride and horse ride".

Seeing his affectionate side I almost forgot what he had done with me for 2 years. For a few moments, I only saw a loving father who loves his children very much. What if we have a happy family! But, alas!!

One part of me is angry watching him touching my children. But, I have to pretend to not hate him for the promise I have given to his family members.

I am looking at him intensely when I heard the crying sound of Devansh and Daksh. I know it's time to feed them. They are hungry.

I hurriedly walk towards them and sat on the bed. He is trying to stop my kids from crying.

I said picking up Devansh," They are hungry. I need to feed them. Can you just go out of this room?"

He looked at me like I have said something unusual. He replied," I feel scared without you. Don't tell me to leave the room. I am your husband. I can see when you are feeding my children"

This time I am feeling like smacking his head. I know that I can not scold him. So, I said forcing a smile," Ok, you can stay here. Just turn to another direction when I am feeding them."

He nodded his head and turn in another direction. First I fed Devansh and Daksh and then Drishti and Dipti.

I am still feeding my babies when he asked curiously," Have you chosen any name for the babies? I am not finding any beautiful names."

I informed him of the babies name and he also liked them. I am sure if he was sane then he surely has confronted me about the names.

After feeding my kids I placed them on the cradle. The whole time he was helping me changing my kids' clothes, placing new bad sheets, etc. He is behaving like a caring husband. I am sure if he is in his actual form then he would have never help me.

I am placing my babies on the cradle when a maid entered with a food tray. Oh, God!! I almost forget that I have to feed this beast also. Ruhani ma told me that he has forgotten how to eat like a normal human being. Whenever he tries to eat he makes his whole face dirty and his clothes also. So, I have to feed him too.

I ordered him to sit on the couch and he obliged. I started feeding him with my hands. The whole time when I was feeding him he was playing with my saree and my hairs. He said tucking a loose strand of my hair behind my ear," your hairs are so beautiful and soft".

I didn't reply to him. His touch is reminding me of those painful touches of him. I remember how he used to roughly touch my whole body. I wanted to scream at him but stopped thinking about my promise.

Suddenly, he asked excitedly," Devika, do you remember how I used to pick you up and twirl you around when we were kids?"

" Huh!! Did we know each other from our childhood?" I asked him curiously.

He said smiling chewing the food," Of course. I know you since my childhood. You used to come to our house with your mother."