Jared had never told anyone about the knot in his heart.
Hence, no one had told him that his existence was a mistake or he wasn't the ringleader in killing his mother.
Therefore, Jared's knot had never been untied all over the years. It had increased gradually. He got drunk to numb himself in the beginning, and later, he began to do self-mutilation.
However, Amber was the first to tell him that his mother had never regretted giving birth to him and he hadn't killed his mother. His existence made sense, which had been confirmed by his beloved woman.
Hence, the knot in his heart was loosened a bit. He also slightly let go of the matter.
Amber didn't know what was in his mind.
However, she was pretty delighted when he told her that he became happier because of her comfort.
It meant that Jared had remembered what she told him before and after he was drunk.
It also meant he was loyal to her the most even though he had drunk.
"Jared, listen." Amber picked up a drumstick and put it in his bowl. "Let's go see a psychologist when you have time, shall we?"
"See a psychologist?" Jared frowned subconsciously.
Amber nodded. "Yep, let's go to see a psychologist. Your mother has passed away almost twenty years. You should let go. Do you wish to be like this every year?"
She put down the fork and looked at him solemnly while she spoke. "You know what, Jared? Grandma has been worried about you for this matter. She's getting aged. She won't have much time to live, honestly speaking. Do you want her to keep worried about you? She should enjoy her retirement at her age instead of being worried about her grandson. Our selfishness has already caused her a lot of troubles. I don't want her to be worried because of us in the future."
Jared pressed his thin lips together in silence.
Amber rubbed her temples and added, "Jared, I'm also worried. Do you wish me to worry about you every year in the future?"
"Of course not," he answered immediately.
Amber gazed at him. "Okay. Then you should go to see a psychologist."
Jared cast down his eyes. "I will think about it."
"It's unnecessary." Amber frowned. "You should give me a positive answer instead of thinking about it. You must say yes. Or, let's not reconcile. I don't want to have a moody boyfriend and be worried about him every year. I will be pretty exhausted from that. Hence, as long as we don't reconcile and have nothing to do with each other, I won't care what happens to you. If I don't care, I won't be worried about you or become exhausted."
When Jared heard her words, his eye pupils shrank fiercely. Pinching his fork, he stood up all of a sudden. Then he grabbed her shoulders tightly, blue veins popping out on the back of his hands. He said agitatedly, "You can't call it off, Amber. We must reconcile."
He finally changed her mind and let her forgive him so they could get back together.
They would be together in two or three days, but Amber suggested changing their plan.
Jared couldn't bear that his effort would go in vain.
He had finally won her heart back. He couldn't afford to lose her again.
Or he would go nuts.
Seeing how agitated and annoyed he was, Amber knew that her suggestion had stimulated him.
After all, Jared had been chasing after her all the time. Although she had agreed to reconcile with him, they hadn't been together for real.
Hence, he always lacked security and suddenly became so excited.
Heaving a sigh, Amber pressed his hands to calm him down. "I can change my mind, but you must agree with me to see a psychologist obediently. As I said, if you won't get recovered, even if we reconcile, I'll feel exhausted because of you every year. Probably, we'll still break up by then."
"No, we won't." Jared's grip on her shoulders tightened. "We won't break up, Amber. I promise you I'll go."
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