I Am The Luna (Moonlight Muse) novel Chapter 30

SEBASTIAN.

Her words echo in my mind as I advance on her.

“The power! Val!” Zaia says suddenly, trying to push me back as she looks at Jai.

He shakes his head, smiling slightly, but I can see he doesn’t want to be here, looking a tad awkward. I don’t blame him, this has just got personal…

“We have a generator, but due to the number of storms we get around here, it’s only Val’s room that’s powered by it. I’m going to go check on her. There are candles over there… if you want to put them on, feel free to do so.” He says with a smirk as he pushes himself away from the wall and leaves the room. Clearly relieved to be away from the both of us.

The moment the door shuts, I close the remaining distance between us, not missing the way her heart is beating faster than normal. I still have an effect on her, no matter how much she tries to deny it. I can see the same look of desire in her eyes that I’m trying so hard to mask from mine…

Three years apart from her has only made it harder. The dreams and memories are nothing compared to the real thing. And even when she’s mocking me, it only makes me want her more… because that attitude reminds me of the woman I fell for.

Back when I first saw her... even then, I knew she liked me, but she still had to act like the sassy redhead she was.

But right now, as much as I want to tease her, kiss her, and fuck her right into next week, I want to know what she meant about our daughter…

Sia.

My daughter, Sia.

No matter how hard I tried, I never learned their names. The Toussaints kept their identities extremely secret. And I am grateful for the extreme measures that Hugh Toussaint put in place for the children and Zaia. It has kept them safe.

He did better than I could have… which had been one of the major clues for me that the enemy was not from his pack.

“What is wrong with our daughter?” I ask quietly.

She looks away, her hair falling in front of her face, shielding her face from my view. I reach down, brush her hair back and force her to look at me.

There’s guilt in her eyes, and I frown.

“I… I’m sorry… for what I said, I can’t blame you… The rejection wasn’t the root cause… I mean it weakened me and I was told I will most likely not be able to have any more children but…”

I stare at her as she speaks quietly. The rejection did that. Guilt eats up at me and I feel as if someone just punched me in the guts. I ruined her…

“But it was the poison that left lasting damage to Sia… but she’s strong, she’s fighting, and she is an Alpha blood born,” she says now looking up at me.

I frown, “Wait, what? Poison?”

She nods. “Valerie figured out I was being poisoned. The day you asked for the divorce I found out I was pregnant and the following day, she called me to tell me that my body was weak… and it is possibly the reason why I wasn’t getting pregnant… but even after I moved to the Whispering Mountain Pack, I was still weak.” She says, sighing.

“She then had some tests run on my blood and found out I was being poisoned and so that night at the New Year’s Eve Ball, she gave me an antidote from a friend of hers and it helped.” She explains, with each word, the emotions that are spinning in my mind are just becoming harder to contain.

She was going through so much, and I will bet my entire pack that the poisoning and the messages were linked…

“Mom was affected by the poison too and she was getting ill, but luckily the antidote helped and once we were at Dad’s pack, I had more created, using Val’s as the prototype. I owe Valerie so much. I want to help her now.” She whispers, brushing her silky hair back only for it to fall in front of her face again as she now looks into my eyes.

Fuck… not only was she pregnant but also handling so many things by herself. I let go of her chin and grab her elbows, pulling her against me. She gasps, her gorgeous amethyst-coloured eyes widening.

“Sebastian…” she whispers, breathlessly.

A memory of me pounding into her as she breathlessly moans my name fills my mind and I push it away, despite the fact the memory has already sent blood rushing south and my cock is hardening.

“Don’t use that tone, Little Fox, because you know it makes me fucking crazy,” I growl, tugging her closer, so she can feel what she’s doing to me.

She gasps, and my gaze dips to her breasts as they rise and fall rapidly, making my eyes flicker to silver.

Fuck yes…

“Seb… uh…” She clears her throat, her pounding heart only fuelling the fire that burns within.

“I’m sorry… but they are useless words that will do nothing to fix this mess… or take back the pain that I put you through… Physically… mentally. Leaving you to handle the birth of our children alone, I am sorry, Zaia, for all of it.” I say quietly, my gaze dipping to where she’s biting her lower lip.

Another blinding flash of lightning rips through the sky, followed by the roar of thunder and I gaze into her eyes.

“Can I have one chance?”

She closes her eyes, taking a shuddering breath as she firmly pulls away from me and turns her back on me.

“We need to find out who is behind everything… in fact, I thought it was Annalise, I do feel she has a part to play but there’s also someone else… perhaps when it's all over, you can be a part of the children’s lives. But… We are over Sebastian, there’s no return, because even if you were trying to trick or show this person that you were truly ending it with me you still hurt me…”

I know she’s right, that I have hurt her far more than I should have…

“You blamed me for Annalise’s so-called fake kidnapping. Also, she practically admitted having lied about and then at Atticus’s pack, she was talking to someone too.” She adds quietly.