Hearing this, Bonnie was stunned. She looked at Yanis. "You really... know him well!"
Yanis looked at Bonnie with a worried look on her face and moved a little closer to her. "Bonnie, honestly, don't you ever feel the urge to be with Myles?"
"Yes," she said.
Bonnie rarely hid anything from Yanis.
"So why worry about something like that?"
Bonnie leaned on Yanis' shoulder. "Yanis, it was just an impulse."
Despite Bonnie's temper and impulsiveness, there were many good qualities in her.
But when it came to relationships, Bonnie was always cautious.
After more than 20 years of bonding with Myles, their relationship had been strained between friends and family. Myles desperately tried to get closer, but Bonnie was the opposite every time.
To Bonnie, Myles was a family member and a friend.
The only thing she didn't see Myles as was her boyfriend.
Yanis stroked Bonnie's hair and whispered, "back in the day... You still can't let it go?"
Yanis could tell that Bonnie didn't even breathe when she talked about what happened back then.
After a while, Bonnie said, "how can I let it go? Do you think he'd hate me if he knew his parents were dead because of my mom?"
Myles loved Bonnie, and it was no secret that he loved her.
If Myles had to die for Bonnie, Myles would probably do it without a second thought.
However, if, and when, the truth came out, Myles, according to his personality, wouldn't hurt Bonnie, but would probably disappear from Bonnie's world.
At that point, Bonnie would probably go crazy.
Even though Bonnie was sick of the way Myles treated her right now, it would be a different story if Myles simply disappeared from her world.
"Bonnie, is this something you're going to keep bottled up the rest of your life?"
Bonnie shook her head. "No, I can't take his right of knowing the truth after his parents died."
That was why Bonnie hadn't been able to commit to a relationship with Myles all these years. It was even because she was afraid.
She was afraid that Myles would hate her and disappear from her world.
That was why she willfully and selfishly refused his love while keeping him around...
When the food arrived, Bonnie ate some and then went straight to the shower.
Yanis didn't go up with Bonnie because she suddenly remembered that she hadn't done the landscape painting Magnus asked for.
Yanis got inspired and spent the whole night downstairs.
It wasn't until the sun rose in the morning that Yanis put down her paintbrush.
There was very little on the paper, but she scratched out a little model.
Yanis put her things away and then got up to wash her face.
Although she stayed up all night, Yanis didn't feel sleepy at all.
Checking the time, Yanis got up and went upstairs to her room to change her clothes. She walked over to Bonnie's bed and woke her up.
"I'll go to Linen Bay. Will you go directly to the hospital later?"
Bonnie sat up bemused. "What are you doing in Linen Bay?"
"I went shopping yesterday. I'm going to tidy up today. When I'm done, I can go to live there."
"Haven't you had a good time with me?"
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