I will never be yours (Kian and Selena) novel Chapter 129

Selena pov

You could almost touch the thick tension in the room when I spoke the truth out loud, he looks me all over for a long time when I feel his mixed feelings through the bond before he cut me off completely.

I felt him shocked and happy before it turned to disappointment and anger in a short moment before he put his walls up.

I know he is disappointed at my actions and the anger I feel radiates out of him is what I deserve!

He takes a step closer to me when his eyes become pitch black and his rage almost takes my breath away.

" you're pregnant and you risked our child's life by going out there! You don't give a fuck about your own life or mine but you are even willing to have our child killed is the worse you ever could do!" he booms out and I hear Emma and Cannon take a step back. His anger washes over me and I start to sweat when he takes a step closer.

"not once have you kept your promise but I never thought you could sink that low you even would risk killing our child!" he roars and grabs my arm hard before pulling me close to him, his face is close to mine and I can feel his claws dig in my arm. It's painful but the rage coming from him is harder to try and breathe through, there is no point in hiding it any longer this has already gone downhill!

"children!" I say in a shaky voice and feel how my tears are running down my cheeks in a steady stream, his anger is justified and I'm just as angry at myself for doing what I did. How could I forget I'm pregnant just like that and risk their lives?

"What?" he booms and I have to avert my eyes from his for a moment, I have a hard time breathing through his anger.

"Can you please try and calm down a bit!" I hear Emma say but it does nothing but only increase the tension in the room.

"look at me!" he growls out and I have to fight the urge to not face him again. Taking a deep breath I look back at him and his eyes haven't left my face.

"children, there is more than one!" I say in a whisper when his eyes flicker for a moment and I feel him fighting his wolf from taking over and shifting right here.

"Kian you have to take it easy and let her go, you are hurting her!" I hear Emma say when a warm liquid is running down my arm and I know his claws have dug in harder into my arm cutting my arm open.

He holds me in place for a long moment before I see him having his wolf under control.

"you have disappointed me in ways I never thought it would be possible, you are not fit for being an Alpha and from this now you are no longer in charge of this pack!" he spits at me and I can feel the hate coming from him.

I do nothing to object against him, I don't think I'm fit for being an Alpha at this moment either.

They are all dead because I didn't lead them the way I should and hadn't it been because I forced Jessie to come with me over to Michael she would probably be dead as well.

Both my Gamma and my Beta went against my orders, the two who are supposed to make sure my orders are being followed did just the opposite. I will not argue against him, I'm not fit for leading this pack.

He starts to walk and pull me with him without letting go of his grip on me when he is being stopped by Cannon.

"Kian you have to calm down!" he says when he only pushes him out of the way and starts to drag me out of the hospital. I let him do what he wants, my mind and feelings are clouded with disappointment over myself and guilt for what I did and haven't done.

Outside the hospital, he starts to drag me over to the barrier and I have no idea what he is planning to do when Cannon gets in front of him to stop him from walking out.

"Kian calm down!" he says when Kian stops and looks at him, hearing someone running behind us I turn my head and see Declan and Jessie coming over. Turning back my head from them, Jessie is the last person I want to meet right now.

" why weren't you outside and help protect her? You had one job here and it was to make sure she where safe and inside this barrier while I where away! So where were you?" he booms out and they all fall silent. None of that is his men's fault since I ordered them to stay inside.

"I ordered them to stay inside!" I say in a low voice, he is already angry at me and I know this won't change anything. But if I can keep his anger away from them for nothing they could do anything about then I will.