I will never be yours (Kian and Selena) novel Chapter 130

Selena pov

I have been laying down here for the whole night, from time to time there has been someone down with a tray with food on and picked up the old one. I have no appetite but have tried to get some food down.

My mind is a mess and I have been crying from time to time down here in the darkness by myself.

He never came down and I didn't expect him to either, what I did was reckless and unforgivable. I know that!

I have felt a link trying to get to me but I blocked them all out, not only because I didn't have any energy left to talk to them I need some time alone after all this mess.

Turning my head to look out the small windows in the high ceiling it looks like it's morning outside and I place my hand on my stomach, I guess it won't take too long until I'm going to be able and feel a little baby bump.

Will he be with me on this journey or do I have to go through it alone?

Hearing the door open at the top of the stairs I hear two pairs of footsteps walking down the stairs. Turning my head to the side I find Emma and Cannon standing by the cell door and by the sight of it, Emma has cried a lot.

"he didn't make it!" I state when tears start to run down my cheeks again. A sob leaves Emma's lips and I turn my head and look up at the ceiling before closing my eyes and just letting my tears fall.

I already knew it before they came down here, this only makes it painfully real how I have failed him and lost my pack members.

"it's not your fault, you couldn't do anything!" Emma says and I open my eyes and sit up on the bed.

"I was supposed to be the Alpha and they would have been alive if I had been a better one! Nothing you can say about it will take away the fact my Beta and Gamma went against my orders and now he is dead with the others who went with him on that suicide mission!" I say and look at her when she tries to protest against it.

"it doesn't matter Emma! What I did was as stupid as their actions. I ordered everyone to stay inside and went alone pregnant with our children, not being able to shift, and had no idea what I would come to face once I stepped out of that portal. I did this Emma!" I say and wipe off my tears while looking at her.

"I don't think what they did is your fault! I can agree with you it was stupid to go after them alone but you can't be punished this way! And you are pregnant!" she says and points at the bars.

" the bars won't hurt me and just because I"m pregnant he keeps me inside here! He can't trust me and I don't blame him for it. I'm safe in here and can't portal away! I wouldn't be surprised if he keeps me in here during the whole pregnancy" I say to her when she walks closer and grab the bars.

" Selena I will go and have a talk with him!" she says and I shake my head at her.

"There is no point! Let him be" I tell her when the door is opened on the top of the stairs again and some guards are walking down and stop beside Cannon.

" you have to leave! Kians orders!" one of the says and Emma turns to look at the man.