I will never be yours (Kian and Selena) novel Chapter 48

Selena pov

"I Selena Carter Alpha of white moon pack reje..”

I never get the chance to finish my sentence before he has my mouth covered with his lips, devouring me in a hard kiss. He leaves me panting for air when he lets go of me.

” I will never accept your rejection! Never! ” he says

Closing my eyes and just breathing for a moment, I knew he wouldn't accept my rejection even if I hoped he would. I feel drained and not a bone in my body has any energy left to argue with him! We are not going to get anywhere with this. I brake free from his grip and start to walk backward, I can’t stay here.

I have nothing more to say, my mind feels empty.

He tries to grab my hand but I jerk it away from him.

We both know what I am about to do but he doesn’t stop me, he just stands there and looks at me leaving him. I open a portal and I se he is about to say something but closes his mouth and let me leave.

I get in my portal and walk out in the back of the packhouse. Jessie and Emma are sitting on the porch when I come to stumble upon it, Emma gets up and embraces me in a hug.

I don’t have any energy to talk to them I feel exhausted right now. These weeks have taken a toll on me. They help me up to my room and Emma gives me a potion that makes me relax. Sleep instantly comes to me, and I welcome it.

I just want to escape my life for a moment, don’t want to feel anything.

When I wake up again it's almost midnight and I think most of my pack is sleeping. Heading down, I want some fresh air and a walk would feel nice. Coming down the stairs Emma is standing in the kitchen, maiking some potions.

” Do you want to talk about it?” she asks me when I walk inside.

” Not right now I feel drained” I answer her.

She looks at me with concern in her eyes, she walks over to me, and places her hands on mine.

” Just tell me something. Did he hurt you? Did he force himself on you because if he did I swear to god I will kill him myself ” I take her in my arms and hold her tight. I am so grateful for having her in my life.

” I know you would and no I am fine. I will tell you everything in the morning"

” Okay you know where I am If there is anything, I have another potion ready for you if you have trouble sleeping again,” she says to me

” Thank you for everything” I let go of her and head out of the house. The air is fresh and I don’t se anyone in my pack.

I know some people are guarding the borders and I think I will join them. I walk for a while before I se Jacob and some other pack members that guard the borders.

Walking over to them Jacob turns around.

” I thought you were asleep or I would have told you, some wolves are running around our barriers tonight. Two of them we recognize from last time but now there are five more and one of them is a big black wolf” When he says that I instantly know who the black wolf is.

I am not surprised, I guessed he would come here and try to find out where this pack is located and find me.

” Where are they?” I ask him

” Come I show you,” he says and we start to walk, after a little while, I see the wolves he is talking about in the tree line.

” Stay here I will take a closer look,” I tell him.

Jacob nods and I walk closer to the barrier, I see my mate's head snap in my direction. His wolf is beautiful and I make sure my walls are up to my wolf. He sniffs in the air and starts to stride toward where I stand. I stay still and se what he is going to do.

When he is almost in front of me I see his eyes glance over and I know he is mind-linking someone. He stands there for a moment and I look right into his eyes, I know he can’t se me. I take my time and take him all in, every inch of his wolf.

The other wolves start to head back to the threes and he is the last one to leave the barrier. Before he disappears into the woods he turns around and looks right at me. I feel my heart taking an extra beat. I have a feeling he will be back soon.

I didn’t sleep more that night, I wasn’t tired so I took the time and worked instead. I had a lot done with the pack and my work before it was morning. Walking over to my bedroom I quickly changed clothes into a comfortable dress. It’s Saturday and I am just going to enjoy my day with the pack.

Getting down to the kitchen I grab some coffee and toast and head back to my office, I am going to finish the last part before I head out to check the borders.