As Marcus looked at me, I could see his expression darkening. “Do you know how it feels to struggle alone in the darkness?”
I pursed my lips. I wanted to apologize but the words were stuck in my throat.
“Scarlett, I used to love you. But now, I hate you as much as I loved you in the past.”
I couldn’t believe these words would come out of Marcus’ mouth. Stunned, I was lost in my thoughts for a long while.
When I was back in high school, I learned about the law of conservation of energy in physics. Later, I learned that in political materialism, it was also believed that conservation was everything.
Back when we were young and naive, we thought that everything we learned in school was purely about astronomical geography. Thinking it over then, I finally came to the realization that we had actually learned life lessons throughout those years without even noticing it.
There was no such thing as unconditional love in this world. It was impossible for love to exist without attached conditions. In fact, love was all about to give and take. The relationship between two people was designed to be an exchange process. If you enjoyed receiving all the love and affection from your partners without making any effort to return back, the uneasy feeling in your heart would never fade away.
I would probably never be able to face Marcus in my lifetime.
He’s right. He was the one who got me out of hell. So why didn’t I reach out my hand when he was in hell?
After he left, I stayed up all night sitting in the living room. I was in no position to judge Marcus. Every step he took was him trying to find peace in his heart.
September in K City was neither too cold nor too hot, but the cool breeze in the middle of the night was enough to keep people awake.
It was a sleepless night for me.
After I had left Ashton’s side, it didn’t take him long to show up. It wasn’t something beyond my expectation. Hence, I wasn’t surprised at all.
I didn’t have to worry about Summer as the housekeeper and driver were responsible for taking care of her.
Ashton came at seven o’clock in the morning while I was still sitting on the sofa. I had no idea how long I had been sitting there, but it was probably a few hours since my body felt stiff and numb.
I opened the door when I heard the doorbell rang. It had only been a night since Ashton and I last saw each other. As our eyes met, I noticed that there was stubble on his chin. He looked haggard as if he had gone through the vicissitudes of life.
“Can I come in?” He sounded distressed.
I nodded and made way for him.
He looked at me with a gentle gaze. “I’m sorry.”
I smiled faintly. “I’m not mad.” After all, Sally was the elder in the Fuller family. There was nothing much he could do.
He pulled me into his arms, enveloping me in the tobacco smell on his body. “It won’t happen again.”
It sounded like a promise, as well as an assurance.
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