Irresistible Love novel Chapter 16

Hatred, I have felt it before. I've seen myself being engulfed into the darkness of hatred. I hated everything about me to the extent that I even questioned my own existence. It was as if there was no reason for my existence and there was no reason for me live. At that time, all I wanted was to end my life. Trust, faith...I had believed that this was just mere words until the day when somebody broke it. My trust was broken, my faith in God and love was broken the day when I was cheated in love.

Until the day I found Zachary.

I couldn't even realize, when he became the most important person in my life.

Day by day, I found myself trusting him more than anyone else and when I did that... when I finally started trusting him...it was like I was finally able to find myself, my existence. It felt as if my whole life I've been living a fake world until I found him and everything in my surrounding seemed to be real and wonderful.

Trust grew up to be faith.

I had faith...hopes on him that he would make everything right for me. He would actually save me from my darkness, my hatred and will eventually help me in forgetting the ugly past of loving Emmett and it was how it went. He stood on all my hopes and found his way towards my heart.

And then I started loving him.

It wasn't about his looks or money, it was just him. Only him. I was sure he could've handled me and I would've fallen in love with him even if he didn't have his wealth to impress me. The words he used, the way he expressed his love, the way he looked at me was enough for me to fall head over heels for him. And it was when I hated myself even more for not waiting for him to come into my life. I knew he was my soul mate and instead of going over the edge for loving Emmett...it would've been better if I had waited for him. I wanted to be his first love and I wanted him to be my first and last but I ruined it all.

I had to choose Emmett.

But life had planned something else for me and it was when Emmett's ugly truth was unveiled and it was how Zachary entered my life. I was glad he came for me.

I was stupid enough not to believe that Emmett was my only love. I was wrong. Zachary proved me wrong and he poured all his emotions out on me and I loved him back. Sometimes, I found myself questioning the silliest question to myself if I were the one who loved Zachary the most or the love that Zachary had for me was much more than what I did.

He proved me wrong every time.

Every single time.

And I was glad I was the one who was wrong. Like every single time, he came forward to help me without any selfishness and hesitation and it was why I could feel all his agony when he engulfed me in his arms. I could feel his heavy breath as his chest pressed into mine and he buried his head in the crook of my neck, I could feel all his sufferings.

A month. It had been a month since I was pulled out of his life and I imagined what he had to go through in my absence.

"Did you miss me?" I asked as I felt him silent for a while with me still in his arms.

"Zachary?" I spoke up and ran my hands all over his back.

When he didn't reply, I made it my cue to move back but when I did take a step back, he lunged forward not wanting to leave me but ended up putting his weight all over and due to sudden bending of my back pain laced up my body causing me to hiss in pain. Zachary heard it and immediately pulled back from me and looked at me worriedly.

"What happened? Juliette?" he asked as he held my face in his cold hands.

I smiled and shook my head no at him. "It's nothing... it's just my back," I said as I touched my back and closed my eyes feeling the pain.

"Y-You need to sit down. I can see you are not really in a good condition. I'm sorry... I should've been more careful about it," he helped me back on my bed as I sat on the bed and he arranged the pillows for me to sit comfortably before sitting next to me on a chair and looked at me lovingly as he held my hand in his.

"Is this a dream?" he asked which made me chuckle and I pinched him on his hand expecting a hiss from him but he didn't even move. All he did was stare at me.

"I want to know everything. What happened and how did you end up here? Why are you in the hospital?" he asked everything in one go and I found myself inhaling deeply before telling him everything that happened to me. From hiring a taxi to the accident and waking up on the hospital bed to hearing all those conversations of unknown people.

"So this is what I can remember," I said once I told him everything in detail.

"But even if I try to remember it, I still can't figure it out who was that guy and who he was talking to," I said recalling the guy who was talking against Zachary while I pretended to sleep. As I closed my eyes to remember the day a sharp pain in my head caused me to hiss in pain and I held the temple of my head rubbing it trying to ease the pain.

"What happened?" he asked almost immediately by my side as he held my face in his hand.

"N-Nothing, it's just my head," I said and I could feel the corner of my eyes stinging but nevertheless I smiled at him not wanting to worry him.

"It's alright. You don't need to remember, I shall take care of it. Don't hurt yourself. You are still weak," he said and I shook my head no.