Irresistible Love novel Chapter 18

"Oh no! Why do I look so much like her? I don't understand it at all," I said as loudly and clearly as I could.

The device had a red light blinking over it and I knew it was recording whatever I was doing and speaking. Not only one, but Zachary found three devices hidden secretly in my apartment in order to record the things that were happening. At first, I had no idea about this but Zachary was clever enough to search for it and he got because according to him, he believed our enemy was not dumb enough to let me live freely. He would definitely check and would have me under watch and these peculiar voice recording devices are just a mere part of it.

But fortunately, Zachary could edit the records all by himself. It meant even if it recorded our conversations, he could edit it and keep the parts that he wanted Alex to know. It was why I had to go on shouting around behaving as if I was Ivona so that it could record my voice and he listens to it and rests assured that indeed I had no memory of Juliette. I had marked him taking the devices with him whenever I wasn't around so that he could hear it all.

If it wasn't for Zachary we would've long been caught.

I raised my eyebrows at him asking him if it was okay for me to stop now but then he made a few circles in air using his finger and his cation told me that I should carry on the act a little further.

"No! This all are just rubbish things. I must concentrate more on Alex for now and moreover, that guy seems to have a girlfriend now, I wonder if he would disturb me and Alex any further," my eyes trailed off to Zachary who was busy in counting the red lights blinking on that small device under my coffee table. All of a sudden anger boiled up inside me for Zachary wasn't paying attention to me and his less reaction on the word 'girlfriend' irked me.

As if noticing my gaze upon him he looked up at me and raised his eyebrows probably asking me why I had stopped talking but instead I got up from the sofa and wore my coat before striding up towards the door, silently. He seemed to caught off guard by my actions because he sat there silently observing my actions with a confused look but as soon as I was out of the door he was right on his foot following me out.

I looked back at him to find him adjusting his hood to hide his face and I stopped on my tracks when I stood right before the elevator and punched the switch angrily waiting for the elevator door to open.

"What's wrong with you? Where are you going?" he asked and I looked back at him with a sharp gaze. At the moment, I had a sudden desire to kill him.

"What's wrong with you?" I mocked his voice in my mind.

"Juliette? I'm talking to you," he said and that made me look back at him. I knew I was angry for nothing but the reason that there was nothing that should make me angry had me angrier upon him. I knew he loved me and only me but still, I was angry upon him. I knew he was doing the same thing that I was doing. I was with Alex unwillingly while he was with that woman...although she was being paid for it for an act but still thinking about that woman had me miffed.

"Juliette?" he called my name. His eyes had been portraying a lot these days or was it me who was able to read it. It was so clear and it was as if I could see the real Zachary who no one ever did. They seemed happy yet dark for some certain reason. Perhaps, he was sad like me for staying away from each other like this. We have been separated a multiple of times now yet fate doesn't seem to be tired of separating us and here we were acting as if we had nothing to do with each other.

He must be suffering from the inside.

Zachary, why do you still hide your feelings from me?

I am really sorry. It's all my fault. If only I had listened to you and hadn't pulled you into all this then we would've somewhere else probably enjoying our lives.

But you were always involved whenever it was something related to me. You've always protected me and it still is even though you have to stay away from me. I want to hug you and tell you that I love you so much that words can't even describe. At that moment when I thought I was dying back in that water, all I thought was about you.

I thought about you when I was dying.

I was worried for you thinking how would you react if I didn't get back to you.

I'm sick and tired of dragging you into my problems. I'm tired of seeing in pain.

Can't we just end this and live a life away from everyone peacefully like those happy fairytale endings?

I want to live peacefully with you. I want to have kids with you and I want to grow old with you.

Just why did I even plan this game in the beginning?

It would've been a lot easier if I hadn't sent Willie after you to stop you from killing Alex. It would've ended then and there but then we would've never known who was the person behind it all.

What the hell am I even thinking?

I held my temple frustrated by myself.

How could I even think like that?

I can never let Zachary kill someone ever again.

For a moment, I grew selfish and thought all those absurd things and that made me upset.

"Are you even listening to me, Juliette?" I heard his voice and looked back at him to find him staring at me intently.

"What's wrong?" he asked and all I wanted at that moment was to hug him tight and never let him go.

Too preoccupied with my feelings, I didn't even realize when I moved further wanting to hug him and he knew my intentions because he smiled and opened his hands for me to fall into his arms but then the elevator door pinged open and I looked back the door when Alex stood right before me with a smile on his face.