"Babe, I had no idea. I'm really sorry. And now I feel even worse, because I am not a good husband. I know you have taken a lot of craps from my family while you were still dealing with this. God, I feel like an asshole," said Kevin.
Kevin felt trapped. He didn't want to move to the capital city, so he married Leena to avoid being reassigned. He didn't want to be that far away from Daisy. And he knew that if she hadn't been something that he clung to out of desperation, they probably would still be strangers. And today, one-night stands were pretty common. People didn't just hop out of bed and into marriage just like that. She didn't have to marry him. But he married her to protect his own interests. And really, what did that do to her? All it did was to make her suspicious and bring her pain. But now, he was no longer using her. He really felt something for her.
"What's wrong with you, Kevin? Why are you getting so emotional? It's not like you. And frankly, it's kind a freaking me out. So what's going on? Are you trying to work up the nerve to tell me it's over? Or what?" asked Leena. Unconsciously, she trembled a bit. After all, for a long time, Kevin was dignified and awe-inspiring. He gave her heart a warm feeling. It was really not like him to be so indecisive.
"Or nothing. I don't have any earth-shattering news. I just want to tell you if you have any doubts about me, just ask. I'm your hubby, right? You should be able to ask me everything you want to know or tell me everything you have suffered. I wouldn't get upset. We're both adults," explained Kevin. He gently released her from his arms, and then looked into her eyes. He gave her the right to rein him in with a gentle tone that Leena had never heard before. There was no reluctance. He meant every word.
"So you're ready to give me your heart?" Leena asked. "I'd be happy if you are. You know you already have mine. But really, you don't have to if you don't want to." It wasn't love that brought them together, at least not in the beginning. She never thought that one day she'd care so much about him. And she even wanted to know what he was thinking. But instead of asking him, she used subterfuge to figure it out. But she fell in love first.
"I can't ask you to wait for me anymore. You've been waiting for a long time to hear me say that I love you. And I still don't know how I feel. I know I care, I can give you that. And I have never cheated on you, for what it's worth," Kevin said seriously. He'd never been emotional when it came to relationships. So it wasn't easy for him to have this heart-to-heart talk with Leena.
Leena laughed. Kevin shot her a strange look. "Kevin, you're so serious right now. Lighten up." Secretly, Leena had some very strong feelings right now. She felt love, and care, and who-knew-what. She didn't really know how to answer him, so she could only laugh to hide the unknown emotions rolling around in her heart. Laughter might also dispel the tension between them.
"Hey, this isn't easy for me. I pour my heart out to you, and you just giggle like a little girl?" Kevin pretended to be angry and turned his back on her, trying to make himself look pitiful.
"Err... Actually, I'm sorry. I didn't mean like that. Please don't be mad." Leena stretched out her finger to poke his arm. She was really afraid that Kevin was truly angry with her.
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