It'll Come Naturally novel Chapter 1457

"You said that you would love the kids as long as I was their mother. But I didn't have the courage to look into your passionate eyes. I know I can't have the baby that you want, so I have to go away." By that time, Leena had stopped writing. She put down her pen and burst into tears on the table, the liquid gushing out like water from a bursting dam. She was alone that time so she was free to cry all her feelings out and sobbed loudly to let out her sorrows.

The letter continued, "I thought I would have a cute baby with you as long as I did what Tom told me to do, so I kept taking those disgusting medicines to adjust my body. Even when you saw me taking those medicines by accident sometimes, I still smiled at you and told you that I was fine as if nothing happened.

I always looked into your face when you fell into sleep. I firstly knew how it felt to suffer from insomnia. For a thousand times, I wanted to reach out to touch your handsome face. But I didn't, because you might be disturbed in your peaceful sleep and wake up. There was nothing I could do but look into your face so that I would not forget it through the dim light. You are going to be the most memorable and precious one in my future lonely life." Tears were splashed on the paper and blurred the words. It was the darkest time in Leena's life. Her broken heart would never be healed.

"I know that you will not leave me even though I cannot have a baby. But there is still very little chance for the other possibility, which is the one I can't bear. I dare not imagine how important and precious I am to you. So I choose to leave you. I can't just be a willful woman. I love you with my whole heart and I don't want to be a selfish one. Maybe you will say that I am a coward and that I escape you with such an excuse, yet I insist on my own thought. I will probably regret someday my decision to leave you. But as long as you can live a happy life with a good wife and lovely children, I can free you from our marriage." When Leena wrote these words, she was smiling. It was a bitter yet extremely beautiful smile. Although she was helpless, she still felt a bit relieved, because she had made her decision and got through this difficult step.

"I've already signed on the divorce settlement. You told me once that it was difficult to divorce for a soldier. But it is still possible, right? I'm sorry, that I didn't keep my promise about our marriage. I'm sorry I will be absent in your future life. Please forgive me." Leena clenched her fist as her fingers rubbed her strained forehead when she looked at their marriage certificates. Sobs racked her body in extreme grief. It was highly possible that not long after, the divorce statements would replace the marriage certificates.

"Lastly, thank you for loving me. Being with you as a couple is the happiest thing I have experienced. I've spent the most wonderful time with you. Although you did not stay with me all the time, I knew you would come back to our home. But this time, it's me who will leave the house and will never come back. Please, don't wait for me, and don't try to find me. Find a good woman you will love. Yes, I will be extremely jealous of her, but I will not disturb you and instead I will pray for you. Please allow me to congratulate you in advance." At this point, Leena was unable to hold the pen anymore and ceased writing. Her heart hurt so much as if a sharp blade was hacking it into pieces when the idea that Kevin would marry another woman sprang into her mind, and that she would replace her to rest in Kevin's arms.

"Also, I put labels on all clothes in the wardrobe so that you will know which clothes you can wear in different situations and how to match them. It's the last thing I can do for you now. What's more, the most important thing I am worried about you is your stomach. When I am not around you, please eat on time and take good care of yourself. Don't worry about me, okay?" Leena smiled bitterly. She finished the letter and put down her pen on the table. The sad and beautiful smile that was plastered on her face disappeared immediately. There were too many things she wanted to write to him, but she knew that she could not just keep writing all of them down because they were endless.