After hearing her words, Rain drew a heavy sigh. "That's true. You're right," he said, sounding a bit defeated. "I almost forgot that you're married now and have your own children." Despite accepting the harsh reality, he still found it difficult to forgive himself, and punched the steering wheel as hard as he could.
"But you've never considered to accept me, right?" Annie asked softly, ignoring the way he lashed out. At the age of 16, she fell in love with him. It never changed for the longest time. But how did he choose to respond to her love? Escape. In order to evade her, he even left the UK, a country he loved so much, and came back to S City. It was he who gave up on her love first. From the very beginning, it was his choice. The choice of leaving her.
"You're not me." Rain yelled, "How can you read my mind and know what I'm thinking?" Her accusation made him feel extremely insulted and pathetic at the same time.
"You're right," she was quick to agree. "I'm not you." She looked at him with such intense eyes, continuing, "So I always believed that if I kept insisting my love for you, that one day, you would be moved by my persistence. But finally, I discovered that you could be moved by anyone in the world except me. What an ironic reality!" Since the situation reached this point, Annie gave up suppressing her emotions and revealed her real feelings to him, pouring out all her sorrow, pain and grievance on Rain, the man she had loved for so many years. She resented him for thinking that he was the only one who suffered in this relationship. When in reality, it was she who bore the most pain in this relationship all those years.
Rain laughed so hard as if it were the only way to release the pain that he felt. "Annie, what are you talking about? If you really cared about me," he dared to say, "How would it be possible for you to marry another man so quickly and bear his kids in such a short period?!" With such overflowing emotions, Rain decided to let it all out, and didn't even notice his wide eyes and distorted face. He was on the verge of breaking down.
"Yes, you're right! I couldn't wait to marry him and give birth to his children. I'm a nasty and lowly woman. I've accepted it. Are you happy now?" Deep in her thought, Rain was the only man she wanted to marry and bear his child. But given the situation, she failed to control her emotions due to his incessant rage and unreasonable allegation. Despite knowing that she should have been calmer, she couldn't help but meet his level of frustration as she had suffered so much for him.
"I..." Rain stopped himself, realizing that he was spiraling out of control. Taking a deep breath, he regained control of his emotions and said in a soft voice, "Sorry. I didn't mean to say it."
"Let it go," Annie sniffed. "Let's continue our trip to the kindergarten, okay?" Fixing the end of her sleeve nervously, she avoided his eyes. She didn't want to have this quarrel with him. She was exhausted, and the conversation was nonsensical.
When Rain noticed the tears on Annie's face, he handed over the tissue to her. Feeling apologetic, he looked at her with a mixture of remorse and regret.
Starting his car, they got back on the road in silence. During the remaining part of the trip, the awkward silence dominated the atmosphere inside the car, leaving both of them to get lost in their own thoughts.
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