Angela took big breaths as she felt chest discomfort and repressed.
"Put me down," said Angela to James.
James nodded and put her down carefully with his eyes firmly fixed on her.
Angela walked over to push out Lorenzo who was badgering Elva and slammed the door.
"Are you crazy, Angela?!" shouted Lorenzo as he knocked at the door hard, "Open the door!"
Ignoring him, Angela walked to the operating bed slowly, step by step.
Looking down at Elva, Angela said in a hoarse voice, "Does it hurt?"
"No," said Elva with a smile and wanted to touch Angela. But Elva was so weak that she raised her hand in the air and hung it down weakly.
Kneeling on the ground, Angela put her cheek against the hand of Elva.
Angela was already misty-eyed and couldn't see anything clear.
The strong smell of blood made her sick. But she didn't spit out and just felt heartbroken.
"I'm so useless..." said Elva with a self-deprecating smile as she was so weak that she couldn't even touch Angela.
Standing aside, Greyson was wiping tears silently.
"Mom, don't..."
Before Angela could say more, Elva interrupted, "Angela, Alisa and you are the people who I am the deepest sorry to in my life."
"It was my ignorance and hesitation killed Alisa and almost killed you. I'm so miserable!"
Rubbing her cheek against the bloody hand of Elva, Angela said, "I'm alive, Mom. Don't..."
Looking at the pale face of Elva, Angela felt her throat was clogged by something.
"Don't cry..." said Elva in a quiet voice, "Don't cry, Angela. It breaks my heart to see you like that."
Angela wanted to say that she wouldn't cry. But with her nose twitching, she couldn't say anything but nodded hard.
"There's nothing I can do help your brother and you and your father always feels that I'm useless and will only cry. So even if I die, no one will be affected."
"After I die, you can move out with James and your father can no longer threaten you with me. I know that I'm a burden to you. Without me, you'll have no scruple in front of your father. "
"I saw Alisa frequently this period of time and she told me that she was lonely in the heaven and wanted me to accompany her. But I knew it was unreal as Alisa hated me so much. How was it possible that she wanted me to accompany her?" said Elva with a relieved expression on her face.
'I don't have to think about all these things after I die,' thought Elva, "and the other people in the family don't have to feel that I'm annoying and I don't have to please everyone carefully."
Raising her head, Angela wanted to smile, but failed. Instead, tears went down into her mouth and tasted bitter.
"I'm so sorry, Mom!" said Angela as she was so regretful to have treated Elva so badly some time ago.
"No, I should say sorry to you..." said Elva as she raised her hand with all her strength and stroked the cheek of Angela, "I should have believed you...that time. If..."
Elva stopped breathing before she could finish her words.
Seeing the hand of Elva sliding down her cheek feebly, Angela felt as if her heart was torn and she was so painful that she couldn't even breathe.
Grabbing the hand of Elva against her cheek, Angela called, "Mom? Mom...Mom..."
Elva was lying on the operating bed with her eyes closed with a smile, as if she was sleeping.
But Angela knew that this women would no longer open her eyes to look at her with a smile and call her name.
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