Seeing him after five years I smile with sincerity as there was no pain or hurt anymore between us.
I don't loathe or regret him. The only thing I'm feeling right now is pure happiness.
Today I didn't expect him to be here in this meeting as usually Jay and his son Jona attends. If I knew he would be here I wouldn't have brought the twins today.
Yes, there wasn't anyone who could handle them back at home. I swear I called Tricia who came over and take them outside as they were whinny and wanted to stay here with me but I just couldn't do that.
This meeting is important to me, as I will announce my resignation as a substitute luna to the Owslebury Pack.
Yet seeing him today changes my mind and maybe I'll do that when I get back home.
A lot of things happened to me when I left him that night. I was able to go back to my grandma and took Wesley with me then we move to Owslebury Pack.
It was a new Pack at the time and basically Alpha Jordan and his Luna Kristen was recruiting anyone who wants to live a normal life instead of becoming lone and rogue.
So I settled there as it was a new start for me and over the years the pack extends and now we have the largest number not bigger than Dante and Aaron.
Today I'm here as a luna because Luna Kristen is now bedridden and requested for me to be her substitute for the meantime.3
It was either that or I have to mate Alpha Jordan fully and become their official luna.4
He's been a good and great Alpha but he wasn't the one I want, neither the one made for me. He wasn't the twins father and I could never do that to my babies.1
It's something that I would never do since I am sincerely happy with what and where I am now especially my two bundle of joy.
Having two pup is a blessing in to my life by the moon goddess after all the pain and hurt I went through.
So yes they are Matt and mine.3
When I left I found out the later day that I was carrying his pups. I almost went back to him after a week but I decided not to as I have my own reasons.4
I look from across the room and saw him looking at me and I swear his sons and mine, the ones he never knew of are a copy of him.
Except one has dark green forest eyes like his and the other has sapphire like mine.
So they were kind of both our mixture when it comes to eyes. Other than that they both look like their father.
Sometimes I complain that I was the one who carry them and in the end they have his look. Nevertheless I love my pups as they are my saving grace.5
There are times that I always wander if I had made a right choice by not going back to him. Yet deep down inside I always knew why I chose what I thought was right and it was the right choice.
Legacy is something I wanted to give to our pups without competition. I didn't want them to compete with her son for their father's title or his love.
I didn't want them to ever grew up with thought like 'which is the most favourite and which is less favorable? whom to inherit and whom to not?
What I did was for my pups and myself. I didn't want them to be torn between love and hate. Watching them grown up with all the love and care I give along with their uncle's support was indeed the best thing to do.
They knew who their father is cause I told them in vague details with no negative story line. Only to replace it with the word complicated as I didn't want them to be grown up filling with hate and holding grudges.4
I have also shown them his photo, that one photo we have together on the night of the Gala and our mating which was given to me by Elle.
After the meeting I quickly got up to attend my sons. I found them both playing outside with Tricia watching over them.
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