Lie To Me novel Chapter 14

Making myself busy through tons of paper works really well. Three days since I returned to work, I have had no first concern but to spend my whole morning at work. It was tiring but helpful.

I got my mind really occupied that I almost forgot what bothers me the past few weeks. It's really just when I go home, because no matter how much I exhaust myself at work, when the time comes when I don't do anything and I'm alone, that's where my mind flies towards that person.

It's exhausting.

You keep looking back only to feel sorry for yourself in the end.

It's been a year and up until now, I am still questioning myself what I lacked, what went wrong, or is there something I failed to do.

I know I did everything beyond what I had believed was my limitation.

That person, I loved him in a way I never thought I could do. I took a risk thinking he would be worth all that trouble. I had surpassed my expectation for myself because I wanted to love him with all the things I had.

But still, those are not enough. I was still not enough.

That's the question I kept on asking myself.

What am I missing?

Where am I missing?

Why?

I pity myself for still seeking justification for that.

It was already nine o'clock when I arrived home. My eyes were falling and I almost fell asleep in the elevator up to my unit. My eyes were almost closed when I reached the right floor of my unit. I only realized that I was about to drown because of being a sibling.

“Oh, shit!” I blurted out.

I rolled my eyes across the hallway. First, to see if anyone saw me almost on all fours and second, what stumbled on the asking.

There were boxes outside the door next to mine. Maybe there’s a new move there. I also had no neighbor in that unit for almost a few months.

I slowly skipped that box that tripped me, trying not to make a noise. The owner might come out and think I'm doing something wrong with their stuff..

"Why are they moving at this hour." I muttered when I entered my unit.