Life After the Storm novel Chapter 15

He is So cocky, like why does he automatically think that I want to be a part of his pack I don't need him? I don't need anybody I don't have anybody it will be easier that way. I don't know if I could really handle losing someone else I care about it is best for me to just distance myself from the world. Before he wanted nothing to do with me, he wanted me to leave what is so different now. Even though I saved his life that doesn't mean anything I am one of the kinds that he hates the most a rouge.

Maybe it's because I am not the person who bows down to his feet, I am not going to anytime soon. Even though he is sexy as hell And I would love to fill his hands all over my body. I need to snap out of it I mean I guess I will agree to stay for now but once I am healed, I will leave. I am so far into thought I didn't even realize that there was someone else in the Room.

“Hello Lilly, my name is Dean I am the pack doctor.”

“Hi it's a pleasure to meet you thank you so much for helping me.”

“I think you need to understand that your body needs to adjust to healing. The best thing for you to do right now is probably just take it easy for the next couple of weeks.”

“You want me to stay here for weeks is that really necessary.”

“Yes it is especially for your pup your body isn't healing but it's also adjusting to your pregnancy.”

“What my pup I'm pregnant you have to be joking this can't be true.”

“I am not joking you are indeed pregnant you need to take good care of yourself for your pup.”

I am shocked by his words I never thought that I would be pregnant my brother did say I Would be loved and have my own I didn'trealize it would be so soon. Now it is not the time I don't even know where my life is going how am I going to be able to raise a pup. I can't be a rouge now it would be putting my pup into danger. I can see the doctor's lips moving, but I hear nothing I am in shock. Now I'm just terrified what is going to happen will I be able to offer anything to my pup I'm going to lose my shit then I hear a sweet voice inside my head “Lilly it will be OK I will help you along the way no matter what you have me your wolf Star? His words shattered my world now everything has changed. What am I going to do now I am not going back to where I was I will never return there?

I snap out of my thoughts by someone shaking me Lilly “I know that this is all hard to take in at once. You would be putting yourself in a lot of danger running alone.”

Tears start to form in my eyes and run down my cheeks “I don't want to belong to anybody.”

“Being a part of my pack does not mean I own you will still have your own free will.”

“Why are you being nice to me all of a sudden you once hated me what changed your mind.”

“You risked your life to save not only my son, but mine as well. The least I could do is help you and your pup.”

I look at the doctor and I look at Landon “I need time to think, please just give me some time to let all of this sink in.”

“Of course take some time to let all of this sink in we will leave you.”

I don't know what to think right now I'm in so much in shock that I'm pregnant Ivan got what he wanted, and it makes me angry that I'm going to have to carry his pup. All that he has done to me now I will have a reminder every day. I know that I shouldn't feel this way, I should be overjoyed and excited to becoming a mother. There is no comparing to my mother I will never be as good as she was.

I fall to my knees and scream why is all this happening to me it’s too much for one person. I was just getting ready to find myself how am I going to be able to do that with a child. Why is my life so damn complicated why can't it just be easy? These past couple of months have been the worst months of my 18 years of life.

Lilly now stop beating yourself up all that has happened to you, it was out your control. You should be grateful that you survived. You have a chance of living a full life, a happy life. The only person who is capable of taking that from you is yourself. Nothing is easy you have to fight for everything doesn't give you reason to give up. Stop not believing in yourself you are stronger than what you think. Your pup is going to need you He or she will be the center of our entire life. We will survive and give our pup the best possible life possible, I promise you that. Star tries to reassure me her words cut through me like a knife I can do this I am just scared.