Lost Me, Gained Regret (Jane and Bryant Ferguson) novel Chapter 302

Whether it was announcing an engagement or filing for divorce, I was always on board, thinking that would be the end of it and that we could finally go our separate ways.

But unexpectedly, my existence became unbearable for them.

Bryant held me tightly as if trying to merge me into him, whispering soothing words, “No, Jane, that’s not what I meant. Please calm down for a moment.”

“What do you mean, then?” I struggled to keep my trembling body under control, my voice dripping with sarcasm. “Are you going to say you never thought of marrying Dorothy? That sending me abroad was for my benefit?”

I wondered, ‘What about that bullet you fired in my direction or your defense of Dorothy before Ramona? Was it all just a joke? Or did I deserve it? I can’t and won’t believe it anymore.’

The harsh yet truthful words of the Myers women echoed in my mind. Bryant and I were worlds apart. I had once attempted to bridge that gap because of Timothy, but it was nothing more than a fleeting illusion. Even living under the same roof, Bryant and I were like two parallel lines that would never meet.

At my words, Bryant paused, loosening his grip and resting his forehead against mine, his gaze intense. “Just believe in me, one last time.”

It felt like a scorching touch, making me instinctively want to pull away. Yet, something made me hold Bryant’s gaze. “Believe what? That after three years of marriage, you didn’t even want to have a child with me?”

The words he had spoken the day we went to file for divorce stung like a thorn in my heart. It wasn’t about me but about the child that could have been.

His eyes filled with regret and helplessness, and he hesitated before speaking but was interrupted by a knock.

“Who’s in there?”