Love You Or Hate You, I Can't Decide, Book2 novel Chapter 266

Episode- 263 "I beg you"

   Ernest's

POV:

      I am so worried,

I know she feels for the baby..... I feel sad too, but I can't let her die just

to have a  child.... No... no I must make her

understand. Nothing is important that Celeste...

    She hasn't talked

with me from yesterday, neither I dared to met her eyes. why this is happening?

Why us?

    I went to the

mansion and it's silent, I asked the maid about Celeste. The maid said, "Your

highness, Ma'am was not feeling well... she was throwing up and her stomach also

hurts... so she is resting.." I nodded. she is in pain. I can't see her like

this...

  I walked in the room,

I saw her under the covers... Celeste, I can't risk your life.

  I got out of my coat

and tie, caressed her head. My love, don't do this... please.

   I got on the bed

beside her, hugging her from behind. I stayed there embracing her, the thought

of losing her is horrifying. I felt her moving her fingers on my hand, she is

awake. I didn't said anything, I just kissed her head.

 I felt her directing

my hand to her belly, as I touched her belly I sigh, and rested my head on the

pillow. She said, "Ernest... this is our baby.... please love it.. let me give it

life...." I pulled my hand away from her belly and sat up, moving my hand through

my hairs. She can't make me do this... never.....

  She sat up and said, "Ernest... please."

  I looked at her as I

was angry and hurt on her decision. I said, "you can't make me do this, Love.

If this child hurts you then I don't want it... you don't deserve this... neither I

deserve to lose you... this would be selfish and foolish to risk your life to get

a baby..."

  Her eyes got teary, I

don't want to hurt her but I want to be clear. I touched her face and said,

"listen to me just this once... let's do what doctor says, your life is

important.."

  She asked in

disbelief, "you really want to abort the baby?... this is our child, you want

to me kill my own baby..."

   I am losing

patience, I said, "do you want this baby to kill you then?... but I don't want

to risk your life. so, I want you to abort this baby... if you really want  a baby then we can try again, but not this

time..." she pushed me aside and got down the bed, I attempted to grab her hand,

I know she is angry.

   She pushed my hand

aside and said, "I am having this baby..." as she attempted walk I saw her let a

small scream and sitting on the ground holding her stomach. She was in pain,

the maids told me earlier.... Before I could approach her, she said, "stop..." she

disbelief, "how can you say that about your child?.... are you a monster or

what?" she was angry.

  I grabbed her arms

pulling her close to me, I said, "I am a monster... I know.... I know you won't

listen to me, and I won't force you too... I love you, but I can't just let you

die... remember one thing, if this baby in you kills you... then I will kill myself

too... I can't live without you..."

  She was in tears, she

whispered, "how can you say that?.... I am taking risk for our baby.... if

something happens to me you should be the one to take care of the baby, raise

it, love it...."

  I said in instant

almost screaming, "how can you think, I will be ok seeing you die... and try act

like nothing happened... and love this child.... I want to have a child with you

but only when you are with me..." I can see that she is crying.... I wiped her

tears and got on my both knees. I took her hand in mine, and said, "I beg you

Celeste... don't do this... let's end this pregnancy when we have time... please... I

beg you..."I was in tears myself.. horrified by the thought of losing her....

   I looked at her and

whispered, "please..." I saw her walking out of the room covering her mouth to

stop her sobs. As she left I sat down and couldn't help but cry... she rejected

it again... she won't listen to me.... what should I do not... I grabbed my hairs

completely blinded by worried and fear.... I feel so helpless... she can't do this

to me.... she can't....