Love You Or Hate You, I Can't Decide, Book2 novel Chapter 284

  Episode- 281 ...please excuse yourself

**  Celeste's POV**:

 Next day,

   I woke up with the

sharp sun rays..... I sat up on the bed realizing he didn't returned to bed or

me.... now I feel more left out.

  I decided this time,

if I be a coward then I will make things complicated in between me and him... he

is the only person I love and he is my husband..... I can't be away from him....

when.... I didn't considered how he felt all this time... maybe it was harder for

him to choose between me and the baby... and hard for him to stay intact after

the miscarriage and when I abandon him in my pain and now blaming  him when he is doing all of this for myself....

   I got really and

searched around when I noticed he was not on the top floor, I walked

downstairs.... But I didn't found him anywhere.... But  I kept looking, till I came across the gym

they have here.

   It's on the other

end, I opened the door and I saw him punching the punching bag. He is sweating

and shirtless, but clearly noticed the anger and distress.

    He ignored my steps

and kept up with his workout... it's not workout... it's torture for the equipment...

and maybe himself...

    I whispered,

"Ernest...." His movements stopped for a second but he ignored me...

  I said again,

"Ernest.... I... want.. to.."

  He asked, "Are you done

with your privacy?.... wait... you don't need me.... and I need some privacy now...

please excuse yourself..." I looked as his back stunned, somehow I feel like

crying... it feels really bad when someone says that to you... and what right do I

have to cry over this... I said that to him yesterday... worst than this....

   I walked in the door

opening it, I don't want to fire the anger more... but I do turned at him and

said, "Ernest... sorry for yesterday...." I walked out of there closing the door,

as I walked through the corridor I wiped my tears.

  I somehow made it to

the outer sitting area, I noticed a picture on the wall, the King and Queen....

They look younger here... way younger....  They look so perfect...

  I wanted me and

Ernest to be like them... but I ruined it myself. I sat on the swing looking at

the waves at distance.... It's beautiful and peaceful but disturbing.... Weirdly