Mates with Alpha Maddox novel Chapter 20

Maddox POV.

I was running.

I have been running for a few hours already I just wanted to get away from Jayda so I could think clearly.

I was praying to the moon goddess that I found a rogue so I could take my anger on him. But since my pack's border patrol is strong its almost impossible for a rogue to enter. Almost, Ellie and the guy who wanted to mark Jayda entered our territory so I still had hopes one entered and I could turn rip him to shreds.

I started thinking about how dinner had gone, I think I handled everything pretty well, I mean I didn't kill the guy so I find that a success.

I had never been in a situation like that because I never really cared about anyone romantically before Jayda. I mean, I had some girlfriends when I was like 12-15 years old but then I realized my mate didn't deserve me having a past with a lot of girls so I stopped dating.

Now that I think about it I might have been a little hard on her, I mean I do still talk to my ex's well they talk to me.

What the hell am I saying! I wasn't too hard on her, Carson obviously wanted to get back with her and she met him behind my back. This is so stressing, I have never been so confused in my life, I have always been confident with my decisions to do things but right now I don't even know.

Its not that I regret how I treated Carson or what I did at dinner because I really don't but I do regret yelling at Jayda like that, she is my mate and we are suppose to know how to communicate with each other and that is what she wanted to do, she wanted to talk about it but I had to go and hurt her feelings.

All the anger I had felt in the last few hours leaves my body and is replaced by guilt.

Inwardly sighing I ship back and grab some basketball shorts that the pack hides all across the forest just in case we shift. Groaning I put my head in my hands and think about how I will fix this.

I decide to head back in human form so I have more time to think about everything. Suddenly an idea comes to mind and I rush towards the pack village.

I knock loudly on the door and it opens to reveal a pissed off Kyle.

"What the hell Maddox? What do you want? Its fucking 3am" Kyle growls out making me roll my eyes.

"I need to talk to your mate" I state and his posture tenses.

"You are fucking crazy if you think I will let you anywhere near her after what you did" he hisses, his eyes turning black.

"First of all, you have no choice little brother, second of all I do apologize for torturing her but then again its kind of her fault, I was going to let her go but she started talking shit about Jayda and you know How I am" I say with a shrug.

"You are not going going to see Ellie!" Kyle yells.

"Why the fuck are you screaming Kyle? I was sleeping, oh hey Maddox" Ellie says while peaking over Kyle's shoulder.

"Get back inside Ellie" Kyle says through clenched teeth.

"What? Are you guys having some kind of private conversation? If so then you are failing because you are freaking yelling" Ellie says matter-of-factly

"Actually, I need to talk to you Ellie" I tell her looking at Kyle straight in the eye.

"Oh sure but does it have to be now? Its kind of really late" she says with a yawn.

I nod "It is really important Ellie" I say.