My Alphas' Dark Desires novel Chapter 170

Chapter 170: Another Guilt

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Chapter 170

~Valerie’s POV~

Xade finally looked me in the eyes again after I had looked away to hide the pain and saw the state I was in.

His hand was gentle as he wiped away a tear with the back of his finger. "Oh, Valerie... shhh, don’t cry."

"I didn’t mean to reopen anything for him. I thought I was just asking questions."

"I know." His tone was soft. "But that’s why you need to know us. All of us. Not just the smiles and battle scars but the things that truly made us—painful as they are."

"No," I shook my head weakly. "Axel’s was already too much. Too raw."

He gave a small smile that didn’t reach his eyes. "And yet, it was what shaped him. You may’ve heard the nickname—The Cocky Seducer."

I paused, unsue if I wanted to answer that buta fter a few seconds, I nodded.

"Yes. After Sapphire, he stopped believing in love. He flirted. He charmed. But he never let anyone in again... until he met you."

I stared at the ground, the weight of that confession hitting harder than anything else. I had wondered, of course. Axel always kept people at a distance, except me.

Yet he was the school’s most favoured playboy. I actually thought he just created the persona but...

"Also, did you notice that the ones he even gives his time to are just mostly blondes now?"

"Why is that?"

"In the past he usually hated mingling with girls with blonde hairs because they reminded him of Sapphire but after a year plus, someone, his cousin talked some sense into him a bit."

I exhaled. "So he changed?"

"Nah, knowing Axel, he didn’t. That is why I said a bit. He only picked up the part where he shouldn’t let her memory hold him back."

"W-why are you telling me this?" I asked quietly.

"Because it’s only fair," Xade said. "You wanted to know about our blue eyes, right? Why we have them? Maybe it’s time I told you mine."

"You don’t have to," I said quickly, placing a hand on his arm. "Really. You don’t owe me that."

But Xade only gave a sad smile. "I do. Because maybe it’ll help you understand that none of us came out of this untouched. And that pain has a way of bonding people even when love feels impossible."

He stood, took a breath, and stepped back just enough to let the night air fill the space between us.

I di dnot know what to say anymore to that and just listened.

Maybe I really did need to know, maybe this was the way I would connect bette with thema nd share my story too.

"It was a mission," he began, voice calm but hollow. "We were sent in to recover hostages—a routine strike on an old rebel holdout. I had gone ahead when I sensed something wrong with the mission spy we had. The info had a loop hole. So, I went to check it out."

I held my breath, waiting for the next part of the story.

"Well, I got lucky. We were double crossed and nowm, the rogues were going to escape. I called in, told my father where they were and the truth about our spy. Rather than let me engage, I was ordered not to do anything, to stand down."

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