My Alphas' Dark Desires novel Chapter 179

Chapter 179: Judgment

*****************

Chapter 179

~Lucy’s POV~

I didn’t know how long I stayed on the floor after Kieran left.

Ten minutes? Fifteen? Twenty minutes.

Maybe more.

When I finally stood, my legs wobbled. My cheek still burned. My ears were full of echoes of whispers, judgment and that slap.

I didn’t cry again. Something colder than tears had taken over.

I picked up the discarded flowers Valerie had thrown and crushed them in my hand without thinking. The thorns pricked me. I let them.

They didn’t hurt as much as he did.

My feet moved on their own, guiding me back to my dorm. The hallway was mercifully empty now like students had scattered like crows after a fire. No one wanted to look me in the eye.

Not like I wanted pity. What I wanted was Kieran’s lo...

No. I didn’t even know anymore.

I slammed the door to my room and leaned back against it, heart pounding like it wanted to escape.

My reflection in the mirror caught my attention. My hair was a mess. My makeup smeared. And on my cheek—the imprint of his hand, pink and obvious.

"You begged for him," a voice in my head hissed.

"You humiliated yourself. For what?" my wolf questioned me sharply. I had been determined to ignore her, but to what end or gain?

She was telling us the truth, but it did not matter, not even my insides screamed for Kieran. To have him kiss me like he used to when he fucked me, to have him want me, like he wished to Valerie, to have him ravish me like he does all his playthings...

But that was my body.

My heart wanted something else. To be his through and through and have him want me as his chosen mate, but I was asking for too much, wasn’t I?

A tear slid down my cheeks at how stupid I was.

"Scold yourself, belittle yourself as much as you want. It won’t change anything if you don’t treat yourself better and demand that he treat you nicely as well. Behave like a bitch, and that’s what you get."

Crystie hissed. My wolf had always been sarcastic toward me. She called me weak when she could, she did not want to interact most times and left me alone to myself.

I couldn’t blame her, though. I, too, did not like how pathetic I had become because of my master.

"Why?" I cried, asking her.

"Why what?"

"Why do you treat me this way?"

Crystie scoffed. "Maybe when you stand up for yourself and find a guy worthy of you, then I will give you the respect you deserve. If not, then take my voice of reasoning as you please and ignore me."

A scream tore out of me.

I grabbed the nearest glass—an old perfume bottle—and hurled it across the room. It shattered into a hundred glittering pieces, like me.

Like everything.

I slid down the wall until I was on the floor again, hugging my knees. My breath was jagged. My throat sore.

"He didn’t even look at me," I whispered to no one.

He never had. Not the way he looked at Valerie.

The way he wanted her. Touched her. Fought for her and risked everything for her.

And what was I?

A tool. A delivery girl. A pawn. A fool.

"You were loyal."

"You gave him everything. And now... he’ll provide you with nothing in return."

*************** freeweɓnovel-cøm

~Riven’s POV~

Verify captcha to read the contentVerify