Selina's heart ached when she saw Yesseca's expression, but she forced herself to get over it.
Selina knew that once she left, Yesseca would have no one else she could rely on in this world.
Yesseca must learn to be strong.
She must learn to help herself.
Selina figured that if she could help Yesseca to get on her own two feet, that would be enough to comfort Lothar's spirit.
Selina looked at Yesseca and spoke clearly, "Yesseca, you have to understand that it's not that you can't cry in front of me, but you can't cry in front of anyone, including yourself!"
Tears swirled in Yesseca's eyes, but they did not fall.
"Yesseca, how long has it been since Lothar last came home?" Selina suddenly asked.
"40 days." Yesseca remembered this very clearly.
The past 40 days were nothing but torture to Yesseca.
Emptiness flashed in Selina's eyes.
Forty days. Turned out it had been forty days.
So many things had happened throughout these 40 days!
Selina spoke softly, "Yesseca, do you know how dangerous it is to go out to sea? There has been no news from Lothar in the past 40 days. You have to be mentally prepared for the worse,"
Although Yesseca had already been prepared for the worse, this was the first time that Selina told her frankly.
She felt as if something hard was pressing down on her and suffocating her.
After a moment, Yesseca said anxiously, "Miss Whitlock, nothing bad will happen to my brother. You told me the last time that my brother won't abandon me and you said that he'll be back when the day comes. He'll be back after a few more months,"
Selina's voice sounded a little sorrowful, "Yesseca, I was comforting you. Couldn't you tell? Did you think I was serious?"
Yesseca was instantly dumbfounded.
Tears suddenly burst out of her eyes uncontrollably.
After what Selina told her the other day, she held onto Selina's words as if it was her religion, but now, Selina told her everything was fake and she was saying that just to comfort her.
Yesseca felt as if she was in the midst of a fierce storm. She thought she could rely on Selina, but that dependence was destroyed.
"Stop crying!" Selina suddenly raised her voice.
This time, however, Yesseca was unable to control herself.
Tears were streaming down from her eyes.
Selina felt miserable seeing Yesseca crying, but she forced herself to be heartless.
In the future, Selina couldn't be there for Yesseca anymore. When the time came, Yesseca would only feel more helpless, more lonely and more afraid. Yesseca needed to learn how to be strong in order to survive.
Selina's voice sounded cold. "Yesseca, do you think crying will help anything? Will your brother come back if you cry? Who are you crying for here?"
This was the first time that Selina spoke to Yesseca in such a cold tone.
Yesseca was taken aback.
She looked at Selina with tears in her eyes.
Selina turned her head away.
She held Yesseca's hand and said, "Yesseca, let me bring you somewhere,"
The driver was already waiting for them.
Selina ordered the driver to drive on.
Yesseca's breathing suddenly sped up when she saw the passing scenery.
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