Chapter 129
I just let him pull me and when we reached the front desk, the worker looked at me and Lance weirdly.
When we reached our room, Lance looked at me weirdly, he must be thinking why would I was so nice to just let him hold my hand without any protests.
He pulled me into his room without my permission and pressed me against
the door. He lowered his head down and kissed me, he licked the bottom of my lips, wanting me to part my lips and let him in, but I didn’t.
“Part your lips.” He said with lust laced in his voice.
I didn’t do as he asked so he just bit and kissed my lips, torturing my lips before he trailed his kisses down my neck.
His hands started roaming my body. I knew what he wanted, I knew it very well.
I looked down at the top of his head and said, “Do you really want to f*ck a whore like me?”
He stopped his action and tilted his head up. He looked sad, “Shut up!! won’t allow you to speak of yourself like this.”
Tlaughed feeling funny and ironic that he could call me names but I couldn’t.
“I was never a human to you anyway, I am always the dirty whore, things that you have used……”
He let go of me and stepped back a few steps.
He looked really sad.
“Don’t talk like that, I have never wanted to humiliate you, you knew I would say things that I don’t mean when I am angry. I didn’t mean to…” He explained.
“I’m sorry, Jennie, I apologize for everything I have done to you, I’m sorry!”
He sat on the bed rubbing his face with both his hands looking like he was really in pain.
“Why would you apologize? You want me to forgive you?” I walked towards him and looked down at him.
“Will you forgive me?” He tilted his head up and looked at me.
Tlaughed and said, “Do you think ! will forgive you?”
Lance laughed bitterly and shook his head, “No, you wouldn’t. I have done a lot of unforgivable things to you; how would you forgive me? But forgive or not, I was planning to let you go but I couldn’t bear to see you fall in love with another man. How could you love another man so easily but you can’t love
me?”
Was he asking me why I couldn’t fall in love with him?
Pathetic.
“Lance Mason, I used to ask you if you like me, but you always said no. Now I ask you one last time, do you like me? Because I can’t seem to understand why you wouldn’t let me go. Aren’t you tired?”
He stood up from the bed and was about to touch me but he put his hand back down.
“You are so clever; you should have known that I have feelings for you. Otherwise you wouldn’t be calling Leo
Mason’s name when you are in my bed.
You wouldn’t be moaning his name when we have sex. Now tell me, who is torturing who between the both of us.”
This is the first time I heard him say Leo’s full name, he would always call him Leo because he is the most important person in his life, no one could compete.
With what he told me, I knew that he liked me, but I didn’t want to accept this kind of feelings from him.
“Yes, I like you, even more, I love you, and what? You don’t love me at all, you will fall in love with every single man in this world but you will never love me. So, I have no choice, I can only make you pregnant with my baby, I thought that you will start to like me a bit because of this baby, maybe saw that I love you at least. But I was wrong, you don’t care anything after you gave birth to Lexi, you don’t even care if she was alive or not, you just assumed that she was dead, because like that you will have nothing to do with me anymore.”
He laughed coldly like a maniac after he finished and held my shoulder, “But I am sorry to let you down. Our baby, she is strong, she can take all the pain from all the five surgery, she is not like you, not heartless like you. She knows that I love her so much and I need her so she takes all the pain and stays alive for me. You see how good our baby is, Jennie? Lexi and I need you in this family, so please don’t leave again.”
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