My Professor Is My Alpha Mate (Lila) novel Chapter 184

Lila’s POV

“But first, tell me why you think he hates Volana wolves,” Diana said, staring at me with sadness in her eyes.

I didn’t like talking about this, but at the same time, it’s a lot of stuff that I’ve been holding in. What better person to tell other than my mate's mother? She had such a comforting and yet familiar aura to her. She made me feel safe, and I knew I could talk to her about anything.

She was very kind, and I suddenly grew upset that I didn’t know her sooner. Enzo has been hiding her basically and the thought hurt my heart.

Did he not trust me enough to be around his mother? They obviously have a great relationship. Why didn’t he want me near her until now?

I sighed and tugged my fingers nervously as I thought about how to answer her question.

“When we first discovered that we were mates, he was cold toward me. I didn’t tell him I was a Volana, but I didn’t hide it either. I later found out that he was doing research on Volana wolves. He was doing research on me…” I paused to gather my thoughts.

I met her eyes and saw how unbothered she was. She didn’t even look phased by this information.

“He told me he was going to reject me once my wolf was strong enough. I had just turned 18, so my wolf was fairly new, and he wasn’t sure how she would react to rejection. A rejection is incredibly painful and damaging. It could have caused my wolf to go into hibernation forever…” I paused again to choke back a sob.

The thought of Val hurting so badly that she went into a deep sleep broke my heart into a million pieces.

“Enzo said that?” Diana asked, furrowing her brows. “Regardless of how old your wolf is, a rejection would be painful. However, wolves always return after. Your wolf wouldn’t abandon you if she could help it.”

“He wanted to wait until my wolf was stronger,” I continued. “Until I graduate.”

“It wouldn’t make a difference,” Diana said, shaking her head.

I stared at her, unsure of what she meant.

“Whether he rejects you now, or rejects you 10 years from now, it wouldn’t make a difference. It would still hurt, but you’d bounce back. You already seem incredibly strong, which means your wolf is also very strong.”

“If that’s the case then why did he want to wait?” I asked.

“Maybe he was waiting to see what happens in the future. He didn’t want to make any decisions right now, afraid that he’d regret them later. So, he held off on rejecting you; giving you excuses as to why he can’t do it right then and there.”

“Did he tell you that?” I asked, raising my brows at her.

She smiled thoughtfully, but then shook her head.

“He didn’t have to. He’s my son and I can read it on his face,” she said in return. “There’s not much he can hide from me,” she added with a chuckle.

I was quiet for a moment longer as I thought more about the things Enzo had once said to me. I was marked by him now; he confessed his love for me. We are happy. But the memory of how cruel he was is etched into my mind. Talking about this with his mother left me feeling a little sad.

Maybe even a little lost.

“Enzo has a big heart and it’s always in the right place,” she said gently, a twinkle of something in her eyes that I could only describe as hope.

I nodded, knowing that she was right. But she was also his mother, so she always only saw the good in him. But I once saw a different side of him until recently.

Enzo hated me because I was a Volana.

“He thinks it was a Volana that drove his father crazy,” I said, staring back down at my hands. “When I was young, I remember that his father was after my mother. He wanted to marry her and use her as his personal weapon. He hurt a lot of people to get her, and it was all because of what she was. I think Enzo feared the same would happen to him.”

Diana stared at me, puzzled, for a moment longer. But then she started to laugh. My face warmed as she continued her laughter.